A letter from Jun 07, 2024

Dear sweetheart, it's so great that you've opened your e-mail account and have seen this letter, as it is not usual for you to check your e-mail box. Now I am sitting in coffeebean, drinking ice-latte with salted caramel, your loved summer drink, near Ameliya. That is the person, who inspired me to write such a thing. I can't say that everything is going great these days, no matter how wonderful it could seem at first glance. All the matters that concern me now are future career and relationships. I broke up 2 days ago, I can't even describe how it feels, as I don't feel I was totally in love with the person to suffer. That is some kind unusual for me. Please, give me an obey that you wouldn't get into the relationship before knowing person's values, interests and love language. I dream of finding someday a man who is going to match your vibe, make you happy just with being near you, who will inspire with his actions towards you. Ok, let's finish with listing an ideal future man. Firstly, you should become the best version of yourself, with whom it is just a great opportunity to spend time together. Lately I feel difficult to be around people, as I see myself and themselves uninteresting. That part of me that see a spark in every person, their identity, unique character traits and talents - is somehow is lost. That's why it's really difficult to be totally sincere with them. Don't be afraid of being yourself. I tried to understand, where is the past version of me, there is that smily and shiny Alsu, but I have understood that I shouldn't try to find her. That was in the past, from that time I have had a lot of experience, that made me. You don't need to be someone or the old version of yourself. Neglecting your current state isn't a good thing. Just be honest and open with yourself. Find this letter a bit psychological, as this are the words I have to hear from someone. Here are some advice to make you feel good: 1. Don't rush, don't try to persue something, don't try to achieve all the goals of the world, especially the ones taken from other people's lifes. Don't deceive yourself with being productive every time and making biiiig lists of tasks on a day. That won't help. Be honest. 2. Every day find the reason why you love yourself, when you can look in front of the mirror and be proud of yourself. Treat yourself as the most important person in your life. You are creative, sincere, open, kind, smart, ambitious, with the light in the heart. Don't let this qualities to burnout. 3. Be easy. Don't make things, especially problems, so complicated. Not even a thing doesn't value your metal health. It's okay to worry, to have some struggles, but don't make it as your everyday state. I love you and I am proud of you, no matter what you have achieved for this period of one year because I know what you are doing well.