A letter from June 3rd, 2024

Heh, dear, hopefully, not fat anymore weirdo, its been a long time. you are turning 30 this year in a couple of months, and life has been extremely unfair to you. 
look at how your 11y old sister is cruising through life. Dancing, evenings with friends, computer, phone, games... remember how instead you got beaten by your mother till you looked like rocky Balboa? you are the first one to own a house in the family....
it's kinda random but that is very important. You still have to help these suckers that were not able to buy anything in 50 years. Well, you are choosing to help them. Who knows how things will be in one year...
As for women, let's just say it out loud: no one has ever truly loved you. Jessi, the love of your life, ended up cheating on you several times. she never loved you. it was only lust. At this point you start to realise that you are undesired by them. 
There is a reason you got rated 0/10 by a random girl when you were 14 in school. Maybe it's time to stop fighting you know? What is the point. It's no one's fault, neither women or yours. Don't get gaslighted by these scummy *******. You did all you could, you behaved as good as possible. It's certainly not your personality. 
Or perhaps it is, you are kinda reserved. Being ugly and reserved is a ***** sentence pretty much. it's not your fault. You tried for 30 years...it's time to let go and be free. 
BUT!You are indestructible. The times where you got beaten, when you got ******** abused, when you were shunned, rejected, and made fun of made you stronger than most. Your mental strategies to support yourself are things worthy of a book. Don't give up on life, only on women. Escorts are always there when you need them. ****, this reminded me of the prostitute song from south park haha Just get in shape again. Not for women, you know it's pointless. But for yourself. You are incredible. And you are my only friend. I will never give up on you, I promise