Life is a wreck, is it any better now?

Life has changed immensely from day to day. Let's see how things are now.... As I'm writing this I'm at my mother's house. No job. No car. No Jesse. By now, 6 months later, I should have an ok job, a car. Looking into starting school maybe? Any of that going on? If not, then what happened? Right now, I'm hoping and praying that I have my Jesse back. That he's gotten his life together and that we're now beginning to live the life we both want and deserve. Plus.... When I receive this it will be my 1 year anniversary with Jesse. January 21st. Are we celebrating our love or is this only a day of remembering what never was? Is he still my heart. My biggest mistake that I dont regret? Was I pregnant? Am I?