A letter from Mar 20, 2024

Dear Me this is 2024 march 20 just another colorless day in my meaningless being, nothing special happened today well except that I hurt my father's feelings... I'm a failure, big failure... I'm a bad son and friend , bad brother and life teacher... I failed as an athlete and as a human... I have no girlfriend don't have any purpose of life... All I do is just daydream about happy life and love but all I get it headache and problems after problems... I hate myself and my life... I hate what I'm becoming and eversince I was born all I was getting was problems and depression... I'm so tired and this maybe just a cry for help I hope that something will change in this or else I just end it all I'm so tired I'm tired of all this tired if crying tired of depression tired of loneliness tired of being tired... I want it all to end find happiness or just end it all there is only two ways out... People tell me that I should thank God that I have everything that's needed food water home clothes yeah of course I'm grateful for that but depression is slowly taking over me and I'm becoming weaker and weaker by every second... No strength no energy and no power left in me just an emptiness I'm just shall of a man... I want to hope that everything will change but welp nothing always goes as planned... Good luck buddy with the Best regards G.S... p.s I'll send this on your bday so happy birthday wish you all the good bye.