future me?

Dear FutureMe, I'll try to write in english although you and me really know that English is my born languageI'm a spanish woman. As I can't invent a wonderfull fantasy to you, I will list the things or feelings you never will forget, if ... for any reason I'm not alive when you read it. Remember: health isn't this perfect body without no problem that people imagine. I know because I never had it, but -on my 8th. year as leukemia surviver- I'm still alive against any pronosthic. So thanks me. Also remember I always had the dream to change this world and I'd fight years trying to do it, and I'd saw my best friends in jail, exile, self destruction... Whatever , this was my best dream... and I'll continue dreaming it although it never could be real. Doesn't mind: I had live enough to continue trying. Remember the important is to search and not to find. Not always. And remember me, dear FutureMe. I'm here alone with my stumble feeling my inmortality - impossible but mine- and saying thanks to my friends, my lovers, my quantic phisic, my books and my writers, my broken forever notebook as a sculpture, this old PC under my hands... writing this mail to you (who are you?) see you later, dear FutureMe.