A letter from Feb 18, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Heyy you. How have you been? Idts that this email will stick with you, because of the numerous email changes you have made (partly not to get distracted, which in the end you always do). I just wanted to check on you. If you still feel like you are stuck. If you still cry at night. If you still stay up till 2 just to watch K-dramas. I know that none of those things are wrong. Staying in a rut is not wrong. Not hoping for anything is not wrong. But sweetie, please look at yourself. You owe your body a ton. Because, at this rate, you should've been snapped out of existence (Thanos pun intended). You need to forgive yourself. You need to freaking fix yourself. We were never angry ppl. We were happy, maybe silent too, but mostly happy. Anyways, do you still have a crush on D, or did he become a good friend? I hope you have someone, and aren't overthinking about why **** happened with you. I hope you moved to somewhere better. Note: Whenever you feel like ****, just go take a walk. Think about momoji and poppies. Think about the numerous sacrifices and the numerous nights they spent for you. Also, think about the numerous sacrifices and self talks you gave yourself. You can try twice, but the third time you should let it go. It's not giving up, It's saving yourself. Trust me, Kanha won't be mad. He'd love you the same. Not like he loves doctors more than other professionals. Just remember, do something. And whatever it may be, do it like your life depends on it. Cause girl, you got dreams and ambitions. And a ton of ppl to prove wrong. With that being said, I'll gonna get back to studying. ily 4ever. No matter. (hamesha) yours (only yours ) The past you.