A letter from Feb 08, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi, im writing the 3rd letter now on the space of 3 years. Its Feb 8th 2024 i remember that the first letter i ever wrote on this was about Dominik, the second one was ab Bence now its about me finally about me many things happened throughout these years and probably many things still will i want u to know that if u got through 2023, u WILL get through anything the end of the last year made me realise hiw much of myself i didn’t know, how much of myself that was hidden, hidden in places even i didnt know about, after spending months alone and re-discovering my own personality, i look at the world with a compliment different view, for example i always thought that love can survive even in the worst cases, which isn’t exactly true, its not about the love you have for someone, it’s about the love someone has for you, its about the love within you, and the love YOU give out, instead of the love you receive life is more difficult with that view but its also more free, it made me show my feelings more to the people i care about, and it made me stop having expectations from people, because at the end of the day they will do what they want to do, without thinking about how can it affect you. but its not a thing that bothers me anymore, what bothers me now is the lack of consistency and communication what human have with eachother, the lack of respect and honesty, in fact it dosent only bother me, it disgusts me from the inside, so after years of trying to be desperately loved by everyone around me, and accepted by everyone i meet, i put the love to myself, i put the respect to myself, i communicate with myself, im honest with myself, and i can finally honor my inside and outside regardless what anyone feels about me, i dont care about being the number 1 to people anymore, i realised its not the point of life, and if i would continue to be stuck in that perspective, i would’ve been even more lost than before. I can finally openly say that i know myself, and i love myself, i think thats what was always missing in my life. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND U WILL GET THROUGH EVERYTHING REGARDLESS WHAT UR FEELING RN, I CAN GUARANTEE IT❤️