A letter from Dec 11, 2023

Dear future me: By the time this letter reaches you, all 7 members of BTS will be back home safely. I hope the sadness, uncertainty and loneliness you felt today were returned 777 times as happiness when they came back. Honestly I've been wanting to do this since the 14th June 2022 but I was just lost for words back then, even though I was full of tears. I think i cried so much back then I can't even cry now that I want to. As I write this, all of BTS have already said goodbye before enlisting. Tae and Namjoon left today and Jimin and Jungkook are leaving in a few hours since it's already the 12th in Korea. Jimin did a live in the morning, so I was able to watch it before leaving for school, but I was taking my Korean final when Jungkook did his so i missed it. I feel lonely and desolated and i'm honestly kind of clueless. BTS basically raised me since i was 13. I went through *******, most of middle school, entering and graduating high school, grieving over my mom, getting my first job and entering college while relying on BTS, but starting from today i'm spending 184 days without them to turn to. I'm really angry and sad but the tears aren't coming out as strongly as i thought they would, and i'm not sure the fact they've left has hit me fully yet. It feels stupid to feel so strongly for celebrities but the comfort they've given me over the years is really impossible to measure and it sort of hurts me that they have to go, and honestly i feel like they should've been excempt from military service anyways, and that makes me really angry. I'm really grieving over celebrities even though they're well and healthy, and I feel like a weirdo. Anyways, I hope you improved on yourself and took care of yourself a lot these past 18 months, I hope you saved up money, kept studying hard, kept learning Korean as well as other stuff and got the exchange semester in Korea that you wanted to go in, or that you chose another cool country. I hope that you're very happy and healthy and your life is full of love and healthy relationships with other people. I hope you didn't go through any major setbacks or hardships, but if you did, I hope you were able to come back stronger from it. I hope you walked a lot in nature, and looked at a lot of art, and listened to music that makes you happy, and scrapbooked a lot, and maybe wrote stuff like poems or diary entries because it's very healing. It gets better, I guess, and you probably know it better than me. I'm really proud of you. If you went through this, you can go through everything. Also, it's gonna be almost 10 years with BTS when you receive this, you're an absolute legendary ARMY. I hope you feel happy and proud when you receive this letter, I love you! Bye! Here's a little gift for you! https://mega.nz/file/U55U3CrY#TJtvEkK8DxYoKsMcJ-_1_skYWZn6GLlaugbLMqwf9cw