Baby Blues

Dear FutureMe, It is a beautiful sunny winter afternoon in Perth. You have just been for a walk around Hyde park and to pick up some minced beef from Torre. You are 9 weeks and 1 day pregnant and you have been feeling a lot of doubts and anxieties, including: Will i ever have fun again? Will i ever feel carefree again? Will i die of agony during childbirth? How will we survive on Duckers income? Will i finish my second book? Will i ever write a third book? Will i suffer from post-natal depression? Am i a terrible person to feel all these negative things about being pregnant when i feel like i should be happy? Of course you wanted to have a baby but it turned out you just couldn't imagine how you would actually feel about being pregnant until it happened and only then would all the dramatic changes and sacrifices you would have to make come to light. So now your baby is one year old, hopefully. I hope you're feeling better about motherhood now. I hope your labour wasn;t as long or as painful as you imagined. I hope you have a beautiful healthy baby and you love being a mum. I hope you and Duckers have come through all this difficult time and are still strong and in love. I think when it comes to the crunch you'll be fine. Maybe you won;t get there as quickly as some other people do. But you'll get there in the end. Love, past me xx