My recent birthday

Dear FutureMe, I turned 38 five days ago. I currently work two jobs, graveyard shift and day shift, averaging about 60 hours a week. My husband has one job averaging about 25 hours a week. My daughter will probably go to prison at the end of this month for drug charges. She's an addict. She's stopped using the hard stuff, I think, but she's still refusing to stop all of it. She's only 20 years old. My husband will be 38 next month. He currently spends about 10 to 12 hours a day playing games online. About 4 years ago he began an emotional and psychological relationship with a 16 year old girl. She's currently 100 miles away in college, but they talk to each other all the time. She can't go for long without calling him, and he can't go for long without calling her. I'm supposed to just accept that they are friends and get over it. My family is lazy and content to live in a dirty house and let trash pile up till I take it out even though they both know how much it truly bothers me. I've been off of my antidepressants for about two weeks now because I lost my medical benefits and found out just how expensive they really are. It's currently 2am and I have to be at work in about 5 hours, but I can't sleep. My daughter is upstairs wandering around the house (I can hear the floor creaking) and my husband is out 'gaming' with a friend. I wonder everyday why I don't give up and walk away from it all. But it seems that I'm the only person in the house who feels a sense of responsibility and responsible people don't run away, they just keep taking things on till the world crushes them. I'm slowly being crushed and they don't even see it. I hope it begins to happen quicker because I don't know how much longer I can hold things together.