A letter from Jul 04, 2023

Dear FutureMe, today was really difficult, Addi and I both got into a massive argument with mum and I felt bad for the kids. Tom was at a friends and I don’t remember what caused the fight but I was mad at her leaving us mass lists of jobs to do and expecting us to bare all the responsibilities of keeping the house running and raising her kids whilst she napped because she had to work. She ended up calling Ross to babysit because I said it was unfair I had to all the time. I never realise how bad she really is because i’m so used to it, I went to my room and cried for ages whilst I heavily contemplated reporting her to child protection services or whatever it’s called in Australia. I did a fair bit of research into it, and to adopting. I just want them to have a good fb old good and be happy. Tyler went to sleep in my bed and he held my hand in his sleep, it was so cute and I don’t want him to ever grow up. Evelyn responds with “I like you” instead of I love you which is somehow better than love but also concerning because why is she saying like instead of love. Tyler and Evelyn genuinely feel like my kids it’s crazy, I would do anything for them. I’ve had a really bad cold this week and I am unsure of how to quit zambreros but I really want to. I reported Zambreros to the government today for not appropriately supplying breaks or water or following any legal procedure at all. I just pulled a split end out of my eye as well and it actually feels a lot nicer now. I was fighting homophobes in an instagram comment section today about new laws in Florida, not only homophobes but anyone that was in support of the laws as they target everyone who isn’t a straight white male- females, immigrants, people of colour, children specifically girls and the LGBTQ+ community, It feels stupid sometimes to be fighting for something that doesn’t first hand affect me but it will affect me. It sets a precedent and just slowly I see more and more rights being stripped away from people and it really infuriates me. How in this day and age is this happening, I don’t wanna think about what it will be like in the future even when i’m reading this. I might not have that problem affecting me now but it still affects women, my community, people of colour and young girls from learning about their bodily functions. Men are insane and the world is so ****** up, I cannot with people, I hate them. I still have no clue what to do with my life, I just wanna be involved with fame somehow, a reporter, interviewer or even assistant, who knows but I believe i’ll get there one day. I wanna live a hundred different lives- there’s so many things I want to achieve like buying a house in Italy to performing on a stage at Madison Square Garden, or letting Taylor Swift, being a celebrated author, having a best friend. On another note, I got Eras tour tickets and I hope I can get ones to another night because I don’t wanna miss surprise songs!! I’m grateful I got tickets at all though so I won’t complain. I hope my holidays get better- after all this is the last real school holidays i’ll ever get in my entire life so I better be happy!