A letter from Jun 20, 2023

Dear FutureMe, You're a good girl with high dreams, but you still facing some obstacles it's temporary, give it time and you'll pass through it. you got your own dream and goals and you should start now to achieve them because no one will be happy with your achievements as your self... You may wonder the reason .. because I'm your future I feel what's going to happen ... Sometimes you need to cry but you hold yourself... I do understand you grew to show others you don't care and it doesn't even affect you but as always you lie to your self it leaves a red mark, and you're pretending to don't care. you always wanted to make people proud of your achievements but sometimes you're not satisfied with your choices ... I do remember in 8th grade you worked hard to prove to your parents how great you but no one give you the care that you deserved only one person she stood by your side telling you how strong you are ... are people that stong .. strong as an unbreakable wall, you worked hard to prove to others while it's affected you more than you were happier, you tried proving your self but you're already tired from trying, from standing multiple times even with your broken parts .. you kept everything to your self, why? , because you don't trust anyone anymore.. at least you got your own confidence that you show others, but, you're shy no one trying to understand how tired are you .. you ask about people, but do people ask about you ? surely NO, and when you're tired they ask why you don't care about us. some don't understand how tiring it's and I'm facing this daily. you always wanted to be a BUSINESS WOMAN, I don't if you still got this dream ... you use to tell yourself: one day I'll open my own company .. trust you nothing impossible you can do it even with closed eyes just go with it... I can remember the days you slept crying because you are soon to explode and the only time you can cry on ... I know sometimes you feel life isn't fair .. it works easily for people who don't even care to do something just about eating playing and nothing good in their life, while you're trying as hard as you can to prove you can but life goes hard with you ... is that even fair, but I know someday life is going to be fair with me, but it's still far from me . you use to say to others you can, do it, I'm by your side, life is good, I'll support you, you're beautiful, I love you, I trust and you support them .but, who supports you, who stand by your side, when are they going to understand you're being hurt because of them why don't they care ... you say life is good trying to forget you life, and how you're facing that hard struggles, can they understand, surely no as always. you got dreams you always wanted to learn boxing did they take it seriously, huh? NO. you wanted to learn skate roller did they support you, surely No they just try to convince you it's hard and you're going to hurt yourself, there is no sport in the world you wouldn't be hurt from, but as always life goes against you. Sometimes you try to tell them about your feeling, but you know they would take it on another way so you keep it to yourself... you work hard but they don't trust you ... you try to make them proud of you're achievements but as always they stood by your mistake every time you're doing something. Do you know why you're a great woman? because you're still trying and telling yourself it's just temporary and just for time and everything going to be okay. Starting your day with a smile to make others better day, but who will make your day? As always you're supposed to start and end. You got bullied for your personality, look, and style. when are they going to see you in a way they accept you on your real you, not your other face? But I tell you someday you're going to be a great woman got to change the world and everyone didn't trust your superpowers you're going to prove it by your achievement because while they kept talking about you you were changing the world, by your thinking, not people comments. Do you know why you're writing this? surely this to yourself but to show your future self what you've faced and what makes you what you're now, always remember I trust and I love you you can do nothing hard as long as you planned to do it, just go with it.