A letter from Jan 01, 2023

Peaceful right?

PAGE 365 OF 365! hi, it's me (again)! how's your 2023, huh? i hope you get more happiness this year :) more social life, more money, more smile, and less pain :) 9 days ago, i prayed that in 2023, i'll be brave, strong, confident, optimist, productive, and glow up. but, today, i feel like i'm given up... i don't deserve that kind of good things in my life... bcuz i'm lazy and it's like impossible, and just... it's impossible. but on the other hand, i wish i could do it. i can be better in the future. let's talking about your social life. so, are you finally active in instagram? or still not download that app? are you finally have more friends? hang out with them? take a lot pictures and vlogs? you MUST to do that. everyone be like, my 2023 went blah blah blah, yeah you should follow the trend sometimes. let's talking about your school! uh, how's school? the teachers? and your boring friends? idk what i wnt to ask you... em, are your exam's good? you have good result? tell me! and, is that S and N still the bestest one? LOL. Ah about the S and N... let's talking about the other S and N... so, who? who the one you choose? HAHA LAST TIME I REMEMBER THAT YOU ALMOST FALL FOR ONE OF THEM! or, anybody else??????? okay, stop making that face. we're serious now. how's ur fam? they're still alive? are you finally moving to grandma's 🏠? i hope you do. today is my 2nd in this house after D, and i'm stress!!!!!! idk how you feel if you still there in like 3 years.... hm, about yourself.... how about your health? mental and physical health? are you okayyy?????? how's ur asthma and bronchitis? how's yr acnes? don't say that i'm triggering you... i hope your face get better :/ and, the insecurity... HUUUH I HATE TALKING ABOUT THIS, BUT, I HOPE YOU FEEL MORE CONFIDENT THIS YEAR. YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING! thank to yourself. you are very strong.

Epilogue

about 1 month later

Hey, sorry that I just read this. And I will reply to this letter today (Feb 09 '24)

Okay, how was my 2023? It went by fast and exhausting. :)...

Sihpnps?ea so i nthki i ddi ahey, nfid.
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Dutestn fi?el enijod ameecb hte icolcnu reasyrtec aiclos dan orem tiyld!enfie hte i. Eher hmuc w,ow f"lie ialocs" os.
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Emro i mynoe? khnti. . . ?no m'i ton rghti own oiwknrg. Dna iasgvn ta ereiht odog lylare nto. Isanvgs hhaa ta my touaccn si erzo.
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It gdoni ,esy mero 'mi mei?sls. Ym ohsopt won ahev of iemlss lot a. . . Fo drpuo 'mi tath and.
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Saem ah, dlo n?api sels.
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Veen i iniggv lu,afrie feel adn ,onkw up fo ilnut yuo ad,yto eas,linzs ensse ilstl atth. Pu to yswala not utb i gvie ryt. Eth edn antw ot ti rrgtee in 'tond i.
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Ym 'elst silaoc flie buota ltka k,aoy. Vtcaie tub ya,eh ahtt sarntiamg 'im veitca onw, no otn iueqt. I out ti, lrraye nsait pnoe sillt irsseot ot ecckh utjs fr'iensd. Tgo atcalluy lto kame i eosm of tbu o?glvs did eedtdle adn, ): ,sye ellw, a.
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Cosolh tbauo lritag,h. . . Het ooclsh. . . Guh. Tselmcassa eesm etg ym an'ct ym olgan ot etehrac iwth the ?shecerta. And nedaigmi i asceerth sstcsmlaae reven ilek vanigh shti. Mela t'heeyr lal so. With reay to si tath peeopl tahe lliefd i ltsa ym alem atdmi. Ilke my ,haye edagrs r?opmiev ti did esesm ti. I tub umdb tslil lfee.
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Oyu how ?n?? dna s n atth diennotme si i otuab togrof. S, buoat deovm on eyha b,tu i. S geyodbo.
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Aah,h bauto dol mesa ayfmli? my. Tnhnigo peicals. Udpsit in 'mi tilsl kctus euosh isht. Da'ragsnm cbueesa ym nraagm'sd fo het rinay got drewekc eeexmtr dna, snsoae uhsoe? ym ueosh.
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Lrlyae ht?laeh ltaenm i'm uotab uto ym ssseterd. A ueisqrre eerngy lto unolcic tnetusd fo gaagnmin the. Is telno,syh dan my neyegr eledtepd.
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Iescxere lyaz sltli ot the?ahl i'm hcaispyl h,a. Etiltl ,tbu a tsi' fi stuj osirtunelo rlearlguy, i xeecsrei to a amde vnee. Ot i alos dowev nur eednwke yrvee. Not ubt betert tighr? aslt anth hc,um ae,ry.
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Ym caen uoatb. . . Mppeisl aer oemr heter now no ,wlel. Elpnty and tbu, lilst tseahedhiw aer eodosnecm lceosd. Ym tawh dab sekma stah't lkoo efca yelalr. Recinsue i flee hu,. . . Aekm ryae bgi acfe fro hguotht a a ym olwud i hegnac. I my gionwgl fele (: tllsi iefadl adn tbu :( cfae helthya kool ot guyl nda amek i.
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,sye teh einntfcod fele now senw tbu, orem is, godo i.
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Egnevrici aelrly tshi tulfagre etlter mi' orf ,ehtonsly. Nhtak oy!u.