A letter from Nov 18, 2022

Dear Urvi, today is a Friday, I just got back from work, Me and Supreet left office together, the entire time I kept telling her how much I think of you and how I haven't felt like this while talking to a girl in a really long time. Also one of the biggest problems i am facing right now is that i am **** at work, i want be good at alteryx and excel. Make a decent enough of a reputation in the office that i can do decent work as well, not just go to coffee with you. So dear Urvi, right now I can't help but feel this for you, I have a crush on you. I like you and I'm, hoping we could end up together, if not forever, at least make some core memories together which we can take to our ***** beds. I don't think I'll tell you on my own that i like you because I am a ***** that way, but i like you and i'm thinking about you a lot. An ideal scenario that i can think of for the time you will be reading this would be if you and i are together but we are going through a rough patch and this email is what will remind us why we even started. trust me i think its pretty cringe too but like i'm only human bro. Any which ways i have a feeling you like me as well, the way you talk to me and all, i honestly i thought i lost the ability to feel these kinds of feelings but for some reason you were able to do that to me, which is a big deal for me and hence its worth the cringe i get in the future. i told you today about how the emails that we're writing are going to hurt like a ***** if things were to go down between us, but i promise and i know you would too make sure its either a happy ending or a bitter sweet ending and nothing else. I honestly am, at a point where life doesnt seem worth it i might want to end things soon once the obstacles stopping me from ending are gone but if i do before this mail gets to you then **** that'll hurt like ****, i'll tho not exist only, so haha sucks to be you i'm giving you more trauma. Just incase we're not in touch or we are not talking or we're not in each other's ;ives anymore here are the things i want you remind yourself and smile about 1. the pani puri we ate together with poorvi 2. the time i randomly came to your pg at 11 and we ended up walking and talking till 3 am. 3.the other time when we had work in the office and yet we just sat and spoke all day long like a bunch of dumbasses. and also i'm going manifest like a ******* god for you to be succcessful and build your own house and open that cafe on a hill and start your own clothing line. Bye, hope we're reading this together and cringing together.