A letter from Oct 18, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hey Baby. (I can call you that. You're literally me XP) Hope all is well & you are not disappointing me too much. Yesterday, Bighit disclosed that our Bangtannies would do the mandatory enlistment. Good for them ^^ It also serves their Gov. right! Dancing around such an important topic. Jin is to be the first to leave, as you know. Why did I even type that? Of course you know that! His new single should be coming out. 10 days. But that means prob less than 4 days later, he's gone. It wont be so bad, right? We all still love each other, right? I hope you've kept strong with this. It's not supposed to be a big deal, but y do I feel like this? It's weird. I'm weird. Life's weird. Hope you're richer too. That job better be paying me well. And if your Boss a *****, tell'em and duces outta there. Yoongz wouldn't want you there anygays. You better be prettier, you have money now. And nicer. Go easy on Mommy, please. Also, I hope you don't resent Dad either. As you can notice, I call him Dad now. I feel bad. I should feel bad. I'm a terrible daughter. I'm pretty lazy too. I get distracted a lot. Thts a no bueno :( Yoongz wouldn't like that either. Work hard. Please find your fire, it's what I need here, but all I have is a flashlight. But flashlights don't ignite, do they? Sure they bring light, but only if you bring them everywhere with you. You can't tire out your flashlight. They are for emergencies only. You wouldn't want your flashlight to die right? Find a light to spread and call it yours. I want you to ignite others, mi amour. You like those nicknames, don't ya? Self-love at its finest! I'm pretty smart in English so you better have understood that metaphor. Also, I hope the Bee is doing well. I didn't give it a name. It didn't feel right to name it. Bee is already a cute name n e wayz. I know I don't feel like I'm worth much now, but I seem precious to someone somehow. Even if they've never met me^^ I wanna stick around, for them. Don't forget, Jesus loves you. And I love you, kinda. Idk you could be a seriel ****** for all I know. Imma keep annoying you later on. Maybe updates on how I feel throughout. I've never done diaries before. This is kinda comforting in a way. I'm basically venting to a stranger on the internet. But the stranger is me XD Thts funny. Welp :] Salutations Stranger! Also remember the story about your display name. Don't say it. It's not an interesting story. ust say it was randomly generated. No one really cares how it came to be.