A letter from Oct 08, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hey baby, honestly I don't even know what you wrote to yourself in 2020, but you were going through a lot. And honestly you still are, like for a while it got better, but then worse, but I don't think we are as bad as we were. I'm not really sure where I wanna get started so i'll just jump into it. Well you are still struggling with self image, you cry sometimes when you look into the mirror or when you try taking a picture, but you just feel so ugly. And the worst part is you don't really do much about it, because you also struggle with having motivation and it really freaking sucks. You wanna start going to the gym and having the body that you dream, but you just feel so embarrassed to start, because everyone will see you and you don't wanna deal with the overthinking. You also hate how you are not good at anything, you have no passion, you have no dreams, and it makes you so sad, because you don't wanna be a failure or a disappointment to your family. I just wish you found something that you like and that you're somewhat good at. We are half way though junior year and you have no idea what you wanna do, where you wanna go for college. You hate how dumb you are. Anyways, on a good note we have made a few friends and we have a best friend, she's always there for you and she makes you happy and y'all have fun when your together. And I'm very happy for you because a year ago you were so lonely and had no one to hangout with, other than your internet friends which you still talk to sometimes. I really hope that when you are reading this in 3 years you will be finally happy with yourself and how you look. And I hope you find your passion and what you want for your future. Just know that I'm always proud of you no matter what and you got this! Love, your 17th year old self <3