A letter from July 25th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, It’s the 25th July today. I just now read back my last letter about wanting to get more friends and I think I accomplished that. I feel like my life is finally starting to get better and I am a lot less depressed than before. My birthday was 5days ago and it’s still really weird to think about it. Barely anyone wrote me and even everita kinda forgot about it. She only texted me at like 7am and she still didn’t gave me a present. Honestly it feels pretty ******. My dad also almost forgot to call me and he only called me at like 10pm. I haven’t gotten any presents on the 20th July only before it. I cried a lot on my birthday. But at least we went on a class trip in tripsdrill (adventure park) and I was almost always with 6boys and 1girl. Melani barely wanted to sit anywhere with me so I almost always set with Alex. I actually had really lots of fun and I am really happy I got closer with these boys from my class. Also there was a boy (konstantin) who said I am “wunderschön”. He also walked thru the whole park to follow me and ask for my snapchat. He called me really often beautiful and also his friends were calling me pretty. When the whole day ended me and him hugged in front of everyone and it was cute. Since than we have been talking really a lot and on the 27th I am going on his birthday party. We are gonna get high there. Lately I finally started living. I live every day like it’s the last one. I also live like I better regret that when I have done it and not that when I was a *****.