Note from the past

Dear FutureMe, How are things? Now I am waiting for the plane to arrive. Well in six hours. This is a tough place in my life. I want to know what you know. Looking back is so easy. So are divorced, back together, on the road to divorce? Say hi to your daughter to me. That is the toughest in all of this. You no longer want to be with her but your daughter is blessed. You need to tell her that you and her mother love her dearly and that won't change regardless of how you and mom are getting along. Please tell me you're out of your parents house. It's bad enough that I won't stay in the house any longer but to be back with mom & dad? What is going on there? Can you explain to her yet that you lied? That you played the game because it was safe? The last was so bad, you went for something safe didn't you? You tried hard not to fight because that's all you knew. You don't talk like you should because you are afraid of the truth. You shuddered when the ring was made. You got so drunk the night before the wedding probably in the hopes of pissing someone off. Hell, you cried when you danced with your mother! You hadn't lived in her house in a couple of years! WHY DO YOU CONTINUE TO TRY AND MAKE EVERYONE ELSE HAPPY BESIDES YOURSELF? I hope things are going well with everyone else. I hope you have found happiness. You did a bad thing. You will have to pay in tears and heartbreak. This is a very painful lesson. What makes us love someone? What is it about someone that doesn't share a single common trait with you that makes you nuts? Why does someone who never argues with you and shares all the same interests is not the right person for you? What is that bond that is created with some and not with others? Hopefully you find this note to be the ramblings of a bad moment in your life and you are making an effort to bring your life around. Say hi to mom and dad. Take care.