A letter from Jul 21, 2022

Dear Future Self, 3 year anniversary today, I hope you're still with Him. How are things going with Him? Did you end up getting into university? How long did it take before you got iver there? What music do you listen to now? Whats the hardest time in your life you can remember? Are you happy? I hope you're happy. Im writing this on the 21st of july 2022. I start work tomorrow, remember this job? How did it go? Im asking a lot of questions. If you aren't with Him anymore, contact Him. See if He'd like to catch up. You miss Him, you still love Him dont you. I hope you're still together, He needs you, and I love Him. If we are still together, congrats on 3 years. Hows the relationship? I hope its going well, have you done any of the bad things I daydream about doing? (If you need to jog your memory; relapse to alcohol, self harm/attemt and have to get someone to sit with you until He's back to look after you, die) Whats the best part of the relationship you can think of? And now what's the hardest thing/time its been through? Is it worth it? (Correct answer is yes) "Him", this part's for you: I love you, more than anything and everything. So much more. I've probably put you through a lot so thankyou for staying with me, thankyou for existing and for choosing me. You deserve so much, more than I can give. More than I'll ever be able to give. So thankyou, I wish I could put into words how I feel. More than just by saying I love you. I only have two questions for you. What is the worst thing I've done to you? And, how many of the discussions about *** did we end uo going through with? I bet you got my max rounds up to at least 20, I prbly don't tell you how much it hurts tho. Hopefully I'm good to you, both in and out of bed. Have a good life and tell me even the smallest things im doing wrong, I wont be able to change all of them but I can at least try change some. Alright thats about all I have to say. Have a good life future self, and goodluck both with your endeavors and with your relationship. Did you achieve the goal I set of making Him happy and healthy enough that if we ever do split up he'll be alright? I wish you well - Past Self.