A letter from Jul 13, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Remember when you used to cry everyday because you can't forgive yourself for not loving back a person you were wishing all your life? Someone who's loyal, undivided attention 24/7, crazy for you, treats you anywhere you go, brings you to places you never thought you'll be able to go, someone, who was not afraid of all the I love you cliches, someone who calls you the love of their life, someone who brings you the prettiest flowers and birthday presents, someone who writes you letters every day, who writes you poems, sings and dances for and with you. But that someone also traumatized you emotionally, someone who brings up my weaknesses when fight arises, someone who gaslights, someone who bullies you, someone who shouts at you, who gets mad at you for no reason. Would I sacrifice my inner peace forever to be with someone whom I've been waiting for my life but end up hurting me to the core?