A letter from July 5th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, right now, right now i’m in ‘comfort’ in life. comfort meaning, i may be worried but it’s not worse. i’m not happy or sad, i’m okay. i understand that there are bad days but i decide not to let it wrap me in it. i cry, but i look forward. i wonder, i get flashbacks of what i been through, but i don’t live in it anymore. i finally understood that, maybe it happened because you wouldn’t see what has to be seen, it wouldn’t change the mind u have now if things didn’t happen. this time, once in a while i get to feel the trauma, but i pray over it.. and then the next morning starts and i get to see the world again and be grateful about it. in my 22 years, i’ve seen the world, the ‘real’ world. i was always told “you can’t get rid of weird people.” this is what my spiritual mentor told me, and it stuck with me. we can’t get rid of them, you had to see those weird ppl’s personality or how they treat you or be a witness how they treat others so get to be the person who will always appreciate the little things about others. i’m in ‘comfort’ in life right now, where i know i’m protected, mentally, spritually and emotionally. i finally udnerstood that, people don’t want to hurt you, just because they want to. it’s how you take it, it’s how you take that hurt.. whatever they did, is it something that you’ll let **** you up and be like that person? no. take that hurt as something that you’ll grow out of. not saying, don’t get hurt.. let it feel you for a sec, 1 week the longest, then keep walking for the better. we’re humans, understand everybody is on their own path, maybe they had to hurt you intentionally or unintentionally because they had to deal with their own karma, for them to face it. and you had to be taken out of those peoples lives, because it was never ur karma to begin with, it wasn’t supposed to be in ur path. As an advice from my 22 year self, the advice i’ll give u for ur early 20’s is “see the world and live the moment.” travel, write a poem, write to ur future self once every year, and read it after a year has passed from that note. write a letter for ur future person, for ur future kids and ur future family. write a letter for ur future 30 year old (i’m sure she’ll want to hear from you. :) ) see the world my love, see how comforting it is to see how the worlds spin, live every moment and every experience. always forgive but, have a safe distance from what or whoever had caused you pain. forgiving someone or something doesn’t mean u have to bring them in ur life again, no. have a ‘safe’ distance, you don’t have to bond with them but, be casual with them. casual in a way where u choose not to disrespect just because ur mad, smile say hi, and then that’s it. go on with ur life, learn who and what to have in ur life. we all deserve this comforntess, as i am in it.. let me be here for a moment. because soon, i’ll be a different better version of me, i know.