A letter from June 29th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Halfway through the year and it had been a rollercoaster ride for me. Alhamdulillah it will always be the most memorable year of my life. I got my commission this year and still I'm under all those military exercises and trainings. I know this will get easier but it's kinda getting tough to keep along. I've met this wonderful girl. Subha. She's been like a pacifier to my pain. Even though there were several times when I made things difficult for her because of my doubtful mind. I deeply apologize to her. I don't know if she will be there when this letter reaches her. I pray that she does. I feel awful to behave so bad with her. Who knows perhaps my attitude will force her to leave me. These times will be long. I don't know how we'll end up then. The saddest part will be us with different people. Probably if that happens she won't care about this letter and what I've been through while drafting this. If you're reading this I want you to know that today the day I wrote this letter I loved you with everything. You meant everything to me. I don't think things will change but who knows what destiny has set for us. Even if I'm not there (I really don't want to say this) may to be happy with the person you're with. I'd be the jealousest person in the world anyways. If we're not there I want to say thanks for being with me in the best part of my life and supporting me in my toughest times. You really are a gem and I'm really lucky to have got you. No matter how we end up you'll always have a space in my heart. Rafiad this one's for you. You did horrible but the way I see you right now you can be the best. I'll take it from here but I really wish to see you as the brightest star. Make me proud please. I've messed up a lot. Im not sure how you guys will end up but take this advice: stop being an *******. I've already ruined a lot of myself being that. I hope you are taking care of Abba and Ammu. They have a lot of expectations from you. Take care of Farhan and Suha. Trust me they love you a lot. So, I guess this is the end of this one. I'll try to write to you till I can no more. After all we have to look after ourselves? Isn't it? Best of Luck man! PastMe 29Jun2022