A letter from Jun 28, 2022

I know that you keep fighting, you don't have any choice but to keep going. I don't know why, I still can't figure out things right now. You must be confused about yourself how this path surprises you. you hate surprises I know but you need to be prepared at all times in any situation. Find yourself a decent job earn money a lot of money be a work addict and if someone approaches you for help, help them but don't let them sway you. Travel many places as you can explore every city, watch the city lights and enjoy the sound of the ocean being enchanted by the clouds and dance with the heavy rain and cry over it as much as you can as loud as you can. all the letters about him forget it. don't look for him because if he really belongs to you he will find you no matter what if he is willing to come back he will. You didn't give up it is just let's say the best medicine for your healing. don't hate yourself instead grow nicely be kind always and glow up be beautiful inside and out talk nicely only the truth. and if the truth hurts them then consider it the better way than telling lies . Enjoy life, and find your freedom. And if his existence crosses your mind and your reality let it pass accept the reality even if it gives pain. If that past life really happens, I think God answered my prayer by giving you the best life and by not knowing me . I'm still in pain, and some memories of events keep appearing. I will just watch it to pass "it is what it is" . If those memories no longer exist there's no reason for them to keep and if my heart protest please let the mind decide for the best. It's 2022 those past decades just happened and are done. Not the soul that needs protection but the body. The soul can't forget the past because of the love that never comes back. So please allow me to decide allow me to be happy allow me to find peace by myself and enjoy every moment of this life. maybe this soul is scared of his return because maybe that return was meant for goodbye 'AGAIN' and for her to avoid that no hand must be held no love will accept No love will give. I'm telling this to you because letting go of the soul's memory that hurt her in 7 cycles needs to be free. I do want to meet him I do want to find him again and explore this life with him but then I realize I should not. And if he is somewhere out there Don't worry he's fine he will be fine. If you are reading this right now I hope you will understand what I am talking to. Live your life happy enjoy youth. I know you don't want to get old so please think positively and don't stress yourself. having a house having a car having 8 digit in your bank account having a small business well that's enough. your family around you nice people to hang out then that is more than enough. All I want for you is happiness and love, honestly, if that love scares you then don't forget god is the best adviser he will help and guide you. God is always waiting for you so in every work and everything you do allow him to guide and allow him to enter your life. something is hurting and it's okay one day it won't hurt one day you will be happy and contented. so, please don't let anyone ruin what you build don't let anyone hurt you or insult you . you are the only one who can protect yourself you are what you have. so please be careful about who you hang out with. teach yourself how to fight right.