A letter from Jun 22, 2022

Dear future phi phi: by the time you get this you'll be in high school and i just wanna say i hope you're doing well and you're happy. i know sometimes it might be hard but you have to promise me no matter how hard it is you'll get through it because everything gets better even if you don't think so. you're a very strong person and if you really put you're mind on something you can achieve it. you always put people before you and you have such a pure soul you always want to help people who are hurting even if they push you away. you always try to see the good in people. you're an amazing person phi. but you have to learn how to love yourself before loving anyone else. hows mom and dad? i hope they are doing good! please take care of mom for me she loves you so so much and she would do anything for you and i expect for you to do the same for her including dad. well i don't really have anyone right now i guess my mindset isn't really in the right place and i've been pushing away the people i love most trust me i wish i didn't but i don't know how to stop it do you still talk to darian? if so how is he doing? i hope you guys are still friends he seemed like he genuinely cared maybe? i'd like to think he did. sometimes i felt like i needed someone to talk to and he was never there for me actually nobody ever really was there for me i always had to get through everything by myself which is another reason why i don't let people in my life because then i'll get attached and every **** time i let someone in they always turn their back and leave its okay tho i'm used to it i guess i've always been better off on my own because nobody else gets me as much as i do and i worry i care to much. but hey how are you truly doing? how is school? do you have any new friends? or even a boyfriend? HAHA some of my goals for right now are getting good grades and start fresh you know? do you still wanna study for criminology or was it just a little phase? whatever it is you decided to go for i'm sure it'll be great! remember to always trust your gut and never let people take advantage of you because you know **** well better than that okay? be yourself okay don't change for anybody people should like you just the way you are and if they don't theirs always other people in the world waiting for you. live you're dreams i hope you achieve everything you ever wanted in life! never give up. keep listening to mom mama knows best! don't look back at things that already happened move on from them it's the best thing to do. make mom proud but don't pressure yourself everything takes time my love. don't smoke or drink it's not good for you. incase nobody has told you i love you and i look up to you okay don't disappoint me and remember nothing goes as planned, see you in another life time future self!