A letter from Jun 22, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hey Future Jeff! if you are reading this now, I hope that you have travelled at least 3 countries now and visit all the wonderful beaches here in the Philippines but now I will update you what is going on in our life this June 22, 2022. Last night I made a decision, a painful decision that I hope will not make me regret but be the reason of my growth. I firmly decided to packed my things and runaway that no matter what, I will be strong enough to be on my own and choose me now. Mariah left me in the middle of the night in a dangerous place because of my clumsiness but I know for sure that it is not enough reason to just leave me there, if it happened the same thing to her, I will never do the same, there are millions of reason for me to let go but I did not because I believe she is my answered prayer but that was a lie, I lost myself in the process of finding someone who will fill my so-called emptiness, I deceived my self that I just need to be patient for her to change or simply I have to work things out because that is what the social media tells you, but I get tired of everything from her tactless mouth to her insensitivity, she is aware somehow but not care a lot as long as she benefits from me, yeah truth is when you want to be in a relationship, choose the kind person. A kind person will always be kind in situation. I believe we deserve a person who will treat us the way they feared bad karma and just love to do the good things, and if there are no someone's, it is you who will fill the void and there is God!!!!! Now I do not know what are my plans, but there are people who will I know for sure will be my support system and the Lord who will guide me, and yes me!!! I didn't get enough sleep. I cried a liter of tears even in my dreams. I will try to be tough, be firmed at my decision and always stay positive. I love you, okay. It literally gave me trauma that I do not want to fall in love again. Now this is my chance to do things to my long checklist of my goals. When you read this, I pray that you are in a place where there is peace in your life and heart. No more sleepless night and ugly crying.