Me myself dumb dumb

Dear FutureMe, I'm really clueless about my future, i believe somehow i'm gonna be rich, i believe...not really. See even express in english i can't type it right. My studying suck, i'm dying, really have no idea wat's goin on, i dunno how i'm gonna pass my exam, dunno how i'm gonna finish uni. So damn hard 4 me. COMPUTER SCIENCE why da hell did i choose dis subject. And yet, no company accept me 4 placement..not really, i know i didn't try hard enough. Still if they accept me wat i'm gonna do. I just wanna go home be wit my family, i really really do miss my family, can't they even get it, they mean so much 2 me, money is just money, right now i have no money, no love, no future, no boyfriend, no friend, absolutely no one by my side, no one supporting me. No one know how i feel, and i dunno whether in future you remember this or not, maybe you don't. I'm dying 4 a friend, just anybody will do, any anyone just 1 person..so i can tell he/she dat i'm not lonely, empty heart empty soul, quiet, cold so silent...tick tack of da clock..tick tack...everyday..everynight... Future future how are you? Are you happy with your life, is it everythin dat happen now ..may it..will it or even just a bit dat make u happy in future. Future of me...are u smiling or u crying? Will it be that that person - the one i'm looking 4 exit in this world???