A letter from Jun 16, 2022

Dear FutureMe, You are not where you want to be in life, although you are taking steps to move towards your goals. As of this moment, you are still in the midst of writing your first still-to-be-named novel. I think it could be a major success if done correctly, especially if it ever makes it to the public/marketing sphere. I am working at Sky High Marketing right now and I hope when you are reading this in three years' time, you are not still working here. It is a great place to work and the job allows for a lot of personal freedom that I doubt I would find elsewhere, but still working here at age 25 means that your dreams of being self-employed and making it big as a writer (either of novels or movies) as yet to be successful. I am still a novice at playing the piano and certainly want to get better at it. I know I have it in me, I just need to dedicate the proper time and effort in actually developing this skill. It would be cool to learn the guitar as well and I would love to be more musically inclined. I can imagine what it is like to play in a live band every Friday when I walk out of work as Waukesha is holding its summer season of music. I still live at home right now, although I am sure that will imminently change. I almost bought a car this week - a Mini Cooper - but Dad rightly talked me out of it as it was not the correct time to do so financially. I know you know the answer and will sure feel like the time went by in a heartbeat but as I write this right now, time certainly feels like it couldn't be any slower. I want to get out of the house and be on my own so my life can finally start. My love life is essentially non-existent, although I would argue that that is the case because I am still living at home. It simply is not the move to try and have my series of firsts (yes, all of them still) with how life is at the house with Dad, Mom, and two of your brothers. They are all essentially ****-blocks (except Dad) and it sure would be more of a headache to try and make something work. Especially because I could not act as I want to and progress the relationship as I see fit while still living under someone else's roof. Inherently, I must follow their rules and their ideals. I still occasionally think about Katherine. What it would have been like had it worked out between us. I have no doubts that it would have been successful, at least for a time, and that she made a huge mistake in not choosing me. I have the feeling that she will contact me once again in the future, although you certainly know that answer, at least that answer up until where you are now. I do still miss her and I wish I had handled things differently at the end. She is one of the few people I've ever genuinely connected with and although it was arguably necessary for me to throw her away, that does not mean it was easy. It's been over a year since everything with her happened but it still affects you. I am not sure it ever will stop affecting you. I hope you are reading this somewhere not in the USA. I still dream of traveling to exotic places where there are exotic women. I hope you are in the countryside in Italy or France, scribbling away on your next novel or screenplay as you chase beautiful girls in the city. Or maybe one is living with you. I have such high hopes for where I will be in 5 years and I know the only way to achieve those hopes is with discipline. Possibly this future letter will serve as motivation - something to live up to if I even keep this in my mind over the next five years. That is pretty much all on my mind at the moment. I have nothing else to say and I hope I have lived up to what is written in this letter. Until this day in 2025.