A letter from Jun 14, 2022

Dear FutureMe, This freshman year has been filled with many ups and downs. Mostly it was very stressful. There were many time where I thought no one cared or believed in me. It felt like everyone around me had given up on me. Especially my parents. It felt like I couldn’t do anything right this year, like every time I try to my best I always mess up in their eyes. But I guess we just live and learn. I hope that around the time I graduate I have made them proud and finally became the son they wanted me to be. I hope that finally I have been able to make them proud. I hope that by this time I have been able to become a better person that society will accept and not just some stereotypical African American man. At this point in my life I have not done anything worth mentioning but I hope to change that by this time in the future. 8/15/18 2:03 in the morning. That date has become cemented in my head ever since it occurred. I hope future me continues to make grandma proud while she looks down at you. Remember she’s always watching wether you believe it or not. I hope that future me has also learned to stop being so emotion and realized that no one cares about my feelings and that I just have to keep it bottled up inside of me until I am alone. To be honest freshman year has been a roller coaster of emotions and not the right emotions. But anyway keep making mom and dad proud and continue to make grandma happy while she looks down at you. Sincerely. Freshman Esaias 8/15/18 FOREVER❤️ #15 ALWAYS💕