A letter from Jun 05, 2022

Dear future me Before anything, please play the song Experience. and I hope you're doing ok.. I hope you have gotten everything you ever wanted. or maybe it's better to say I hope you figured everything out. and that you have fewer grammar mistakes by the time you receive this letter. anyways, I'm staying at Fatemeh's place, all by myself, naked because it's too hot to wear clothes. remember what you wanted to do at year 2022?? you wanted to go to Italy, you had been planning for this for 2 whole years. you tried your best. but you kinda failed for some reasons. maybe it's not a good thing to call it a failure. cause you tried hard and it didn't work out. you know that I tried to believe and trust the path. I thought about what the universe might have in store for me, I accepted that I'll have better opportunities, that I can have what I want in a better way elsewhere. but at this point, I don't even know what I want. But I do know one thing, that I'm a bird. I crave independence. that's for sure. you know what else I want? to travel. yes that's right. to be out there, travel, help people, e with animals, not to be stuck behind a chair, being a accountant or such. I don't know if we are completely free in making our decisions or living our lives. but even if we are not, I want to believe that I myself am in charge, and nobody else. at least no human being. I need to enjoy my so-called freedom as it is. even if everything was planned before we were even born. anyways, I'm not feeling the same about Italy. that wasn't my ultimate goal. at the moment I'm just floating in the air of dreams, goals and thought. I'm talking so much. right? I'm in my talking mood right now, listening to Experience. it takes me to a beautiful mood. makes me wanna write more. you know how music affects us. I was thinking about making music the other day. I thought to myself "if I can't write, maybe I could make music, or dance. you know how you feel about them." maybe I will. I wonder what you're up to right now. so, how did it go? did you start learning music? or did you start dancing? did you bring the artist out of you? what else did you do? did you go to Italy? or maybe another country? Holland? Sweden? Scotland? Canada? or did you decide to stay in Iran? did you become independent? did you start traveling? did you find the love of your life? did you meet Tiago? how did things go for you and Arash? did you have the courage to tell him how you feel? or maybe you decided not to tell anything because you didn't think he was the one? did you learn Italian? do you still like acting? if you do, I think you should do something about it. or maybe try to learn singing. if you haven't already. I love those things. Narges, whatever you do, please remember that you're enough. no matter what you go through. no matter how many times you fail or how many times your heart is broken. YOU ARE ENOUGH. that is part of being alive. alright? you'll figure everything out, you have a lifetime to do so. and if you didn't, well what the hell, at least you lived and enjoyed in the little time you had. you know **** well that you will only live once. you are beautiful. you are yourself. that is the most important thing about you that everybody that knows you, appreciates in you. stay true to yourself. please don't let anything take that away from you. though I didn't mean that you're flawless. you are not perfect. please please don't let arrogance take you away. I hope you get this letter at a proper time. oh btw, I'm watching How I met your mother right now. what are you watching? ps: I'm not gonna review this letter before sending it. It's from heart and I don't care about writing soooo well. ps2: sorry I didn't write in Persian. next letter will be persian. I don't promise though. I need to be in the mood. you know what I mean. be good. say hi to Homayoun doe me, will you? and kiss your parents and sisters and make sure they're doing fine. (مامان نگران بیماری کوچیکشه. امیدوارم تو زمان تو حالش خوب شده باشه کامل. و بابا هم کمی شادتر شده باشه.) ask the same from your friends too. never forget to ask what they're doing. love you. Narges