A letter from Jun 08, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I am not in tears right now cuz like it's really hard adjusting and tryna attempt oce again getting back life together. A while ago i'm with mame and bilog na magina again to eat meryenda and sabi ko na nman "promise last day na toh nang pagbibinge ko. Okay kakakita ko lang rn ung mga FutureMe post nung iba ang grabe like parang 4 or 6 yrs bago magsend ung sa iba and hehe im such an impatient one so.... mwehehehhe. Wait hanap lang ako spotify song para ano with music ako today. Alam mooooo ung lovelife ko finally nagstop na unti unti interest ko dun. This time ako lang okay? WAG NA MAGLOVE LOVE NA YAN need mo pang magfocus sa sarili and family mo!! ISTG LEANE IT'S SO MUCH WORTH IT, kung experience lang want mo and ung mga keme keme mong atleast walang regrets tumahimik ka kasi u know that u should stop expecting from men and that may exception sakanila cuz all they always do is disappoint you. BE YOUR FEMME FATALE goshh this is a reminder lang ha kasi alam ko namang marupok ka PLS LANG AYOKO NA ULI MATAWAGANG BOBO SA PAGIBIG atleast di nilaako masasabihan na hindi ko mahal ang sarili ko kasi NOW I AM ******* LOVING MYSELF LIKE FOR REAL THIS TIME. POTA YUNG GUARD AND PULIS KANINA NAPAKAKADIRI kaya di nako basta nagtitiwala eh napakamanyakol kung magcatcall bwiset kaya yan itadtad mo sa utak mo how MEN SUCKS. NEEEEXT binigyan ako LV bag ni tita Nash and I'm so grateful kaso kanina masyado akong stress sa Fil ko kaya ayun malakas ung boses ko which is a lesson for me na wag magtaas ng boses kahit stressed ka. EH KASI NAMAN I TRIED STUDYING FOR 3 HOURS AND I ONLY GOT 9, i mean i should be grateful right but that's not what i expect. ALAM KO NAMAN NA THAT'S LIFE WE MAKE MISTAKE IN ORDER TO GROW AT LIFE WILL NOT ALWAYS GO AS WE WANT pero **** ung effort ko naman. Naglinis ko ng kwarto again kasi bigla nalang pumasok sa isip ko na leane no HINDI KA NAGEXERCISE NGAYON whichfor me is fine cuz nagjogging aq yesterday at bukas ulii WALA I'M RENEWING A NEW version of myself WOHOOOOOOOO AGAIN AND AGAIN keep trying ganurn ano pa ba wala lang nakakaiyak kasi naman this time talaga pls itatak mo lagi sa isip mo na nagpromise kang GAGANDA KA AND DIKITA IDIDSAPPOINT oo ikaw from the future. My message for you: HOY KASE KITA MO NAMAN UNG EFFORTS AT PINAGDADAANAN KO rn. Nasa rockbottom uli ako strivinbg to GO UP kaya pls sana if hindi ka okay ngayon tandaan mo na you're better than this KAYA MO YAN kahit di mo tlga kinakaya pls maniwala ka nlng na kaya mo KASI AKO ANG NAINIWALA SAYO!!! your younger self is proud of u okay? IF YOU'RE DOWN AND SOMETHING FELT WRONG don't worry it's valid no matter what hindi mo naman kailangan buhatin lahat inhale exhale ka ganon tas look what's good in it haaa. If masaya ka ngayon and naappreciate mo ko eneveee ako lang toh WHAHAHAHA este asus wag ka nga paiyakin mo pa ko ehhh halaaa basta ayun ha GO LANG NA GO FIGHTING AT KAYA MO YAN!!!! GOGOGOGOGOOGOG MWA MWA MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA. Magpatuloy ka lang. <3 In every universe, i'll choose you. Kung may susunod na buhay at iba pang universe ikaw pa din ang katawan at soul napipiliin kong mahalin. I promise in Jesus name. AMEN.