A letter from May 16th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, This probably feels like staring an alternate reality version of yourself down huh babe? So let's cut to the chase, I'm graduating high school this week, you're (hopefully) in your junior year of college. I think (I don't know how to count). 1. How was CAP? Do we regret not going to some fancy out of state school on the coast or was this really the best choice for us (and our parent's wallet). Do we wonder how we would be different if we just straight up got rejected from UT instead of that conditional acceptance. It was weird, I guess it's better than nothing, but maybe it's my apathy wishing for a certain yes or no so I wouldn't have had to struggle through it. 2. Did we go to Austin? If we did was it as good as a fit as we hoped? The school? The culture? It was always the place we said we'd stay if we had to live in Texas. I hope that little college tour really did capture the energy, and that it lived up to our expectations. 3. Are we still majoring in what we planned on? Political science (pre-law) and maybe a psychology double major or did we decide we hated that and changed it up. Lord knows our only goals in our job is: limited math, money, the ability to travel, and nothing to crazy. I'm okay with boring, as long as I can go and live my life after. 4. How is our love life? Are we still with our current boyfriend or did that end? I hope it didn't, I know I can't predict the future but I really hopes it works out. Sure 4 hours may not be a lot of distance, but when we're used to 15 minuets at most? Especially when we are both transitioning from high school to university for me, and for him trade school and a full time job, I just hope we can make it work. I do love him, and maybe I'll end up heartbroken but I think that will be worth the experience. It's good to know that I do deserve someone who actually cares for me and puts in effort. 5. Are our parents still together? Are they in another rough patch or are they okay. They probably aren't the best pair. But they're catholic so... we'll see. I hope our relationship is better. At least with our mom and brothers. I don't know if it's worth it to hold out hope for my dad anymore. Maybe that's a therapy question (probably shouldn't have ghosted her), but you know. The screen can't make me cry by making me talk about it more so. I hope our brothers survived middle school. It's rough, but it gets so much better after. I think, if my timeline is right, that they're going to be going into their sophomore year?? 3 years... yes. Sophomore. I don't know math is hard. 6. Do we have good friends? We don't have the best track record with those. I hope you broke the cycle and that the issue was just the fact that we were in high school and were too much of a people pleaser to actually say anything and by the time we got more confident it was too late. Better late then never but I would prefer not to find my ability to talk to people in my senior year. I just want us to be happy, and grow. And rich. I swear if we don't end up traveling even a little bit, I'm gonna be pissed girly. I love you, please make sure everything is okay.