A letter from Feb 15th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hi Cha! how have you been for the past 3 years? I'm honestly just writing this down because I saw the old email I sent myself back from 2017. Surprising right? hahahha! We were young, naive, and hopeful back then. But that's enough about the past. The current us... hmmm... we're doing okay. Always regretful still, but better than before. We also are meant to graduate this year, Civil Engineering, who could've imagined that a dark-skinned and rowdy girl from Bulacan would have such a dream. It's still far away, but thesis is coming up and idk what topic to get?! Geodetical? Transportation? I've yet to know in the upcoming weeks. The classes are tough, but we're holding on. I couldn't even believe we were able to reach this point lmao. I thought we would be dead, and just... gone. Also what happened to our art career???? hello? You spent so much on digital apps and gadgets--well our parents, but then again, how is it? I've recently stopped doing watercolor and acrylic paintings and started doing digital art more, but it's also starting to weigh down on me. I hope we're making better art though... AND STOP BEING LAZY WITH POSTING ON SOCIAL MEDIA MAN, you need the exposure with your art! :P Anyways, our love life... nothing as usual I guess Tinder, Bumble, and Omegle... we often go to these sites just to feel the sense of connection, but the pandemic is honestly keeping us from falling in love. We're often the ones who are the 3rd, 5th, and 7th wheel of the group right? I'm sad about it sometimes, but I also fear commitment after what we've been through. I also want to have work first before we get into a relationship so we have our own money for dates, you know?! I'm embarrassed that a lot of our friends are starting with their careers while I'm still dependent on our mother and stepfather. I miss Skylar... do you still remember him? our first kitty, he was always the little devil that will run away from us because he was often anxious. It's been a year since he died, I miss him every day. How are our mom and brother by the way? The pandemic? Your job? Mittens and Tofu? Do you have a new place of your own? So many questions! I want to know what the years have brought to us. You're 25 now, do you still don't wanna marry and don't want kids? By the way, our mom will be 48 and our brother will be 11 by this time right? I hope they're safe. I won't ask much... I want you to tell me everything once you receive this. Stay safe self! I hope... I really hope we are happy.