A letter from Jan 5th, 2022

Hey there, future self. It’s been a long time, huh? I hope you’re doing better than you were 3 years ago. I’ve been stuck in this loop of confusion and depression that I just can’t seem to get out of right now, but I really hope that you’ve been able to break out. I imagine you’ll be mentally stronger than I am right now, and even if you still haven’t been able to, you’ve made it far enough to receive this letter, right? You’re 21 today, finally a grown adult, and as of writing this I still haven’t even reached 18. I know that a lot could change, I don’t know where you’ll live in 3 years, or what you’re up to, or what your college major is (for all I know it might be entirely different than what I was wishing for), or if you’re even in college. Despite not knowing any of that, I hope I can make the right choices to at least ease up your present. Write back to me if you can, try and tell me what to do or not do, when to skip class or when there will be a substitute, or if I’m still with Ally 3 years from now. Say hi to her for me if you are, punch me if you’re not, haha. I’ll try to hold onto her for you, I know we both don’t want to lose her, but as we both know it’s not up to us. How’s the family? Are they still at each other’s necks? I really hope not, but hey, I won’t know until I get the letter. I just want things to get better for us, for you. I’ll try my best now to make sure you’re not dead before the letter arrives. I wonder if you’re still 5’3. You probably are, sucker. I know we don’t mind it though. If you’re in college still, you should probably get back to studying, or something like that. Probably gonna procrastinate like I always did, haha. No matter where you are, though, I hope you’re at least okay. I hope you’re alive. I can only hope. This letter might not even make it to you, but I’ll never know until then. If you’ve made it this far, I’m proud of you. If you didn’t, at least I have the safety of not knowing. Stay strong for me, I want to die smiling. I’ll see you later, yeah? With past wishes, You.