A letter from Oct 30th, 2021

Dear Future Me, How's it going? How are things 3 years in the future? I hope we made it through university fine, and im confident you got what it takes to get through it. Even when the going gets tough I believe in you, and trust me I know how tough it gets for us sometimes. But your friends aren't lying to you, you know? They love you, they enjoy being around you and they well and truly care for you. How's relationships going? I can't even imagine what that'd look like for us in the future, maybe because I'm so uncertain about stuff now. How do you think about to future now? Are you still scared by it? God knows I am. It's daunting not knowing what lies ahead, or if I'll even make it to see this letter in god knows how long. I have so much to say to you but I don't know how to word most of it, so if you're confused by this letter then I'm sorry, but its all stuff I felt important at the time ok? I guess I really just want to know how the future is for us (funny after i mention being scared of it huh?). I bet we get some job at some games studio right? Hopefully near bristol, I love this city to *****. There's always the possibility we don't I suppose How's mum and dad? Not shouted at you for too many more dumb decisions I hope? (like the gym membership thing recently lol) Just remember that no matter how many times you make mistakes, or how many dumb things you say, they love you no matter what ok? They're proud of you to the ends of the earth for simply being their son. I have so many questions and so many feelings I don't know how to articulate and I'm trying my best, but I shouldn't take up too much more of your time reading my incoherent babbling, so I think I'll leave you with this: No matter where we are right now, no matter how dark or dire life may seem and no matter what you may think about yourself (or what we think about ourself i suppose), I am proud of you for getting that far. I am more proud of you than my words can describe and even if I don't like admitting it to myself now (I can't imagine that changing much in 3 years) you are loved, if not by anyone else then I'll say it, future me: you are loved by your past self. I really hope we learned to love ourselves in the future. Anyway like I said I won't take up any more of your time. Go back to whatever you were doing before you saw this strange email you forgot sending pop into your inbox, and go show the world who we can be. Oh, one last thing, happy birthday! You most likely forgot but in theory this should be your first birthday after graduation! Congratulations old man you made it to 23! Love, Your 19 year old self. (30/10/2021 @ 1:07 AM) (i hope we learned how to have a sensible sleep schedule too thinking about it)