A letter from Oct 28th, 2021

dearest stranger whom i'm going to fall in love with: i surely will give you this letter so beware of spelling mistakes, gramatical erros, cringe-worthy & cheesy lines and lastly, a demanding attitude coming from your partner's younger self (i'm gonna tell you "no, i promise i was always nice, i was just paranoid/excited/motivated/self preservating/coping"). i recently watched the show "anne with an e" on netflix, and i'm currently reading the following books; so my standards for love are high. i'm mostly writing this letter to vent and get a letter from myself five years from now and... it'll be worth the embarrassment, i'm sure of it. now, sissi, if you're still reading yourself, i would appreciate it if you gave this to your significant other now; but be sure that the person who receives this letter is the person you want to spend the rest of your life this. shall this be a letter that conveys the general idea of a marriage proposal? i suppose so, but as i said before, the embarrassment will be totally worth it. now, stop me from rambling, i'll go straight to the point. dearest stranger, you now know i'm nervous, i would even say i'm extremely anxious and filled with a combination of joy and fear. why fear, you ask? i literally just told you this is a marriage proposal i think you get the idea, so treat future me well and if you're gonna decline or tell me to wait please do it kindly. my love life has always been a constant... struggle. two unrequited loves and one uninterested boyfriend by age sixteen. well anyways, just treat future me well because i'm currently struggling a lot and i deserve someone loyal. i hope you're handsome/pretty, well mannered, have a good sense of humor and like music just like i do. nah, forget about being well mannered tbh, the more rude the better because the fights are never gonna be taken seriously because i use humor to cope. good luck, stranger. (for goodness's sake i wrote that like 8 months ago and now i'm finishing my letter by age 17, allow me to continue) if we're dating, know for sure you met my standards and i know you are a man of God. in the past months, the requirements to by my boyfriend have changed, just slightly, and i demand romantic dates and Bible study nights :>. if done otherwise, you'll have to be replaced with a new cat or dog, whichever comes first. anywho, i'm glad you're BEING KIND TO ME, because take this as a threat, i'm the same person always and i know i won't change, so whenever you're not kind to me, i will kindly pray to God and ask Him for help :). but really, sincerely, i appreciate you; you're someone who can stand me and if you ever notice me being off, please ask me to speak up and try to figure my things out with you by my side, of course not before consulting with God first. i'm thankful you're kind enough to listen to my problems and hug or feed me while i'm crying about crap. keep it going, you'll make me happy, i just know it. when you realize we're a happy couple, don't hold back and share your love for me in ways you've never done before, i'll make sure to return it, that's a promise. and although i don't have any idea of who you might be, i have NOT found anyone i thought about marrying, [since currently, i'm single (oct 28th 2021) and i promised myself to be single until i find a place/community to settle in] i know we'll be a perfect match as long as you're romantic with me :). one last thing, dear future husband. don't forget to trust me, even now i know i'll choose someone that'll try to look tough. don't even try it with me, you can be vulnerable around me, i promise i will always have a kind heart, specially for my loved ones. listen to me when i ask you to share about your troubles (and if you don't feel like talking, we can spend a day together or do something that helps you think about something else) and cry around me. it's gonna be okay. with much love, sissi gontillo. oh, PS: much about this letter isn't serious. if i truly love you, i won't leave you for a dog LMAOO.