A letter from Oct 4th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, dude i started reading other people's letters and it got me thinking what if by the time you got this, youre in the wnba. wouldn't that be pretty cool? i hope youre really good at basketball and i hope youre gorgeous. no, i KNOW youre gorgeous, trust me. this is putting a lot of pressure on me because theres only a couple of years left till you get this which only means i only have a couple of years to try and fulfill everything i wanna become. i really hope i do it tho. i really hope youre reading this right now and you feel proud of yourself and you feel that all of your hard work has paid off. i saw this one quote on here from someone else's letter that said "if we wait until we're ready, we'll spend our whole lives waiting" and it got me thinking a lot. ive been procrastinating a lot and its really not good. i watched this ted talk the other day and it was about procrastination and how it actually seriously ruins our lives, and that got me thinking too. i want to stop procrastinating but its just too easy. one of these days tho, im going to do it, im going to stop being lazy and chase my dreams. why? because ik it'll be worth it, and ik youll be miserable if i dont step up now. i love you and i hope my actions make you love me too. im delivering this on my graduation date. june 4, 2025. thats crazy. it sounds a million years away, but when i think about it, just 4 years ago i was in fifth grade. where has all the time gone? it is seriously so crazy because this computer that im using to writr this was bought four years ago. four years ago, i looked, thought, acted, talked, and did everything so much differently than i do now. so i wonder what type of person ill be in the net four years, in 2025 when i graduate. middle school zoomed by tbh. feels like ive blinked and somehow ended up here lol. i really really hope you get this. i really do. right now, im insecure, im confused, im tired, and im ready for the following years to come. when i think about it, 2021 ends in three months. now THATS crazy because it still feels like its 2020 to me. this whole covid thing is so frustrating. things have gone back to normal somewhat but its definitely not the same. everyone still wears masks and stuff, im talking about normal as in people actually go out now lol. i hope covids gone by then. i really hope there aren't any other diseases gosh. these letters are kind of like therapy. im glad i found this website, its pretty cool. todays monday, its 7;45 pm right now, im thinking of going to the football game at mitty against bellarmine on friday. i haven't told my mom yet but hopefully, she says yes. she never lets me go out with my friends, i literally dont rven have any friends for that reason. well, barely. im the only kid in all of my friend groups and outside whos parents let them hang out. im not even asking my mom to let me spend a weekend in las vegas or whatever, she doesn't even let me go to the mall with my friends. I DONT GET IT. im so tired of this. because of her, im always the outcast, im always the girl that cant go anywhere, im always the girl who has to make ecuses on why she cant come because shes too embarrased to tell them the real reason. I hate it here, ugh. i didnt mean to get this emotional but writing can get you carried away sometimes. anyways hopefully you do get this. bye for now future me