A letter from Sep 4th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hey, I know things can be a little hard rn but you got this! and ik i sound cheesy and corny- but whatever. hows sammy? did you guys end up together? rn i am head over heels for him. sabine calls me boy crazy but idc. we're having tommy's birthday party tomorrow and im excited since fin will be there. i hope your still friends with him. hes a great friend. u over amar? you better be. IF I FALL FOR HIM AGAIN OMFG. im currently over him. 8th grade is nice so far. ive only been there for 2 days and banged my locker sm. but i have all my crushes in atleast 1 class. sammy is in 5 of my classes!! ugh, its like God is messing with my feelings. BUT ME AND SAMMY MAKE EYE CONTACT AND SMILE AT EACHOTHERRR I FEEL MY FACE TURN RED AND HE LETS OUT A SMALL LAUGH. hes honestly the best part of my day. idk how ill focus in class when hes there. you over jack? hes kinda a jerk. i really hope we still have the same friends. hailey, anna, elise, sabine, karolina, fin, ella, and fiona. their all so supportive. tomorrow ik anna, sabine, and fin are coming to the party which is exciting. im supposed to be cleaning my room rn so if dad catches me ill be in big trouble. mom is shopping thank god so i wont get into too much trouble. she'll be home soon- so im a bit nervous. what if she yells at me? im trying to clean but i feel so weak. my stomach and legs hurt. idk whats wrong, and i feel like in panicking. my hands are all shaky and weird. ig ill be fine. wow 300 words already. im listening to music tryna calm down but idk if its working. i really hope i had a glow up so im not ugly anymore. maybe if i glowed up sammy would like me? thatd be nice. hows tommy and niko?? their rlly annoying rn and getting on my nerves. im getting super mad easily lately. pfft maybe i have anger issues? who knows. i keep hearing footsteps and getting scared. OH HOW WAS THE 8TH GRADE GRADUATION THINGGG?? idk if they do that but if they did was it good? did you go with someone? are you dating someone? i have so many questions. i hope you found someone that makes you happy and knows your favorite things. if not thats okay, i promise you will someday. and im really proud if your still here to read this! good job! and, if your looking for a better haircut, curtain bangs are my go to rn. i have sorta curtain bangs and im in love with them. and redecorate ur bedroom if you havent already. remember brian? hes the one who held our hands when he had us try his skateboard. damn, he was nice. we really underestimated him...poor brian. are you playing volleyball or soccer? you really should. did mom stop making fun of you and calling you names? i hope so. hows grandma? yia yia and papou? go talk to them please. and i hope you have enough money for a better style. im trying my best to dress with what i have but i look rlly ugly. i need some new clothes. and a new color for my entire bedroom. my fav song rn is heatwaves. it reminds me of sammy ofc. i may sound cringy but idc. him giving me attention made me fall harder for him. did you atleast talk to him throughout 8th grade? if not slap urself. do it rn. thank you. dads yelling at tommy for breaking things rn. i hope you have the best future and everythings okay<3 and if ur crying dont please<3 love you