A letter from Aug 28th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I doubt ill even live to how old you are now but if you did **** that is shocking. How is cadence/jupiter? I hope she didn't leave you, in any way. At the point im making this im still living with aunt, so where are you living? Did we run away with cadence/jupiter when she got a car? Are we still friends with gracie and audrina? Or the others? Like aster, atlas, thistle or lexi? Also! Yesterday was freshmen orientation, im officially in high school now. It was scary when i first walked in but i made a new friend! Their name is toby. I hope i didn't annoy them, they seem really cool. Do you still get the feeling you're forgetting someone? Like when you cadence and aster used to hang out back in 6th grade, wasnt their someone else? Im not talking about ela either becayse i remember her, but it just feels like there used to be someone else too, someone who was there the whole time throughout 6th grade. Someone who was in the group chats too, they were there everyday but i cant remember if that person existed. I just get the feeling someone else was there too,, I might talk to cadence about this later today but im afraid shes going to think im crazy, i tried talking about similar stuff like that before with her but i think she thought i had lost it heh, Did things ever get better?, for her and for you? What's happened these years? maybe future me could write some stuff that's happened these years if you get this letter. What's all has changed? Currently im a genderfluid nonbinary lesbian that goes by any pronouns but currently prefers he/him and they/them What about you? Did all of our friends make it? Did we make more friends? Who all has stayed? I dont really know what too write, i dont really know why im making this I guess it would be cool to see this if i make it too 18 How is cadence? Is she ok? Hows her life been? Did she ever find someone better, Hows her doggy? Did we ever make an animation together? How much has cadence changed? Are you guys still going to get those cats? Did she make it too,, god i hope so,, she deserves too live and have a great life,, i hope she feels happy now, i know its not that easy tho. But what i mean is, does she at least not want to die anymore,,, or at least not as much, Does she feel happy, Then again if she doesn't make it i wont ever be receiving this, or at least ill never be able to read this The only reason i want to make it is to live with her. To have a life with her, That's the only thing that makes me even slightly want too live. If we dont make it tho i hope we were able to do it together, in person. Or at least that she told you when she was going to and that you did it too If she made it i hope you gave her so much love,, She deserves all the love in the world I dont know what else to say I guess if i remember too ill send another one of these to myself in the future, if i dont remember and i get this at 18 you better send one too 20 year old you lol Or 21 Maybe both Well goodbye for now and well see if we survive