A letter from Jul 31st, 2021

A letter from 31st of July, 2021... It’s just been your 26th birthday and you were wondering where did your years go. Having doubts about current and past love ghosts, asking yourself what was real love and what wasn’t. Why you loved the one that did least and not the one that could give everything up just to spend another day with you. Love is strange and it gives you bigger fear as the years pass. You start to feel fear of being alone. Fear of not finding the One. And fear of not feeling the same what once been found. You could have played safe and stayed with the guy who actually loved you. But that would have been for a wrong reason, wouldn’t it? Out of fear and convenience. Isn’t that’s why people are so afraid to move on? And I know I might not find anyone else. And I won’t feel the excitement of seeing someone I love after spending few days apart and having butterflies while he’s kissing me. I won’t feel inspired and wanted. Nobody will help me in need. Might spend the rest of my life alone. That is possibility. That is a risk that I am willing to take, because even though I turned 26 I still believe in fairytales, I believe in soulmates and I believe in true love. I know there is someone just like me waiting for me. And if I’m willing to take that risk, good things will happen. And today you turn 30! And I am so proud of you! You are a fighter and a dreamer. You want to make world better and you never give up. Never lose hope. Keep looking for a heart of gold!