A letter from Jul 26th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hey there listen right I will be turning 17 in like 2 months so what I m tryna say pls make people happy stay happy infant of people I hope u r the cool kid type that I imagines yk being frnds with everyone having a nice time with ur frnds their in uni best frnds with teachers too dont show ur trueself rn I m typing in Bangkok in ur room is ur trueself with anger issues , suicidal thoughts , depression and god knows what rn I dont even know what is going in my mind its like not in my control so the motive of u doing uni far away from bangkok is coz u can be a different person not to worry about things u worry here in Bangkok coz here many people knows u and u know them no matter what u think deep down yk u care what people think here in Bangkok I hope u r a diff person there the way u wanted u to be and ur life but never forget if ur happy be scared to be happy becoz something bad will seriously happen and you know it so just smile remember every bad things during ur happy moments so yk that I cant stay happy for long time idk what I m typing but I hope u r understanding what I m trying to say coz Idk how to put the feeling and thoughts in my head in words its like I have 3 diff personality one in Bangkok what every close one family friends knows except ur bff and one if u r in uni that personality that u wanted to be in ur life fun adventurous having nice frnds and yk what I mean but in reality what I think is my real personality is a deppressed person who is worthless and doesn't deserve love so don't let people do things for u can do for them coz u care for them but dont let them do coz u r worthless and yk it love ur frnds like u can get ****** for them but at end of the day remind urself in ur future it will be a memory everyone might leave u and all u will be left with a happy memory of them and they won't be in ur life in ur future and never get married and fall for someone u never know what life is waiting for u what if they leave or god knows something happens to them u will be heartbroken and ig u dont want that coz u already have enough in ur life but I hope u r visiting orphan age and hospitals making people happy coz u love doing that remember never stop that rn I dont know where mindset is but remember ur iPhone 6 Plus and one plus 7 pro phone u have recordings on that ur own late night talks with urself u recorded what is going through ur mind what u r feeling I hope uu still do that well goodbye see yea