A letter from Jun 26th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, happy feastday <333 Not going to lie i dont know what to feel now. sad? lonely? its going to be your birthday tomorrow in a few days and the family planned a surprise party. Obviously they dont know i know. I saw this is theraputic i mean you write in your notes and notebook but seeing this again will prolly surprise you. i wonder how your doing now. i still have no college. i mean i do but i havent enrolled yet. did you finish your first year with flying colors? well you shouldve. its gonna be awk tomorrow. i can feel it but at the same time i feel lonely. i mean you are lonely now. you have barely any friends. ok lets be honest. you dont talk to anyone. you dont know how to communicate anymore since this summer. but hey you are your own friend. when are we gonna have friends? oh remeber the problem and how everytime we saw the person or people then we dont forget the face and that it hurts so much sometimes we cant breathe. im having progress now :)))) i saw the person and i forgot the face and name. its what they say "when it starts, itll hurt a lot till it'll hurt and hurt. and the day will come where you will remember it and it will only hurt a little and end up as a memory." ok im watching greys anatomy now and teddy atlman is fav like why kwjsndnddn also eric dane is there :DDDD oh charmed. and jackson oooop love anyway what else is there to say. your birthday wish still stands. not sure if it already happened or will ever happen prolly not but hey everything will work out and be ok. do you have a friend? why do i keep asking that i mean ok not to be rude you prolly still dont but hey dont forget to pick yourself up ok. remmeber the things before you make a friend and keep a friend. the surprise is in the afternoon i guess. i hope it rains. so its cold :D not looking forward to the surprise im tired :DDDDD ALSO ABOUT THE dying you are improving. it wasnt so good its been gone and back gone and back. its scary but i hope yoir doing better now. you will, we will be happy, soon. update !!!!!! it hurts less right? and congratulations. i wonder if you got a latin honor. xoxo, lex