A letter from the past

dear future me, are you gonna be going to college or university or whatever and be a therapist? thats my first question. i hope you are, ive wanted to do it for a while now and i want to help people. but then again, i wanted to be a singer for about two years straight in elementary so. that obviously isnt going to be happening. whos died in the family so far? has nona died? probably by now. shes old. have any of our grandparents on mums side died? most likely papa, but grandma? i dont know, maybe. shes like sixty nine. funny number. im getting side tracked. are any of your friends still alive? like, ace? or nyla? i have an odd feeling ace may be dead. thats a joke, i believe in ace. or maybe he ended up like nancy downs at the end of the craft. that would be kinda funny. i would laugh if he was like nancy downs. no i wouldnt, im a nice person. am i still friends with nev? i sure hope so. nev my beloved. whats she gone to college for? have we met in real life yet? did she crash her car when she did her drivers permit test or whatever? we joked that she would end up crashing, because shes ***. funny right? i think its funny. most importantly; how are you? no actually, i dont care. did i end up going to eastwood? or did i go to huron with ace? i hope i went to eastwood, ive wanted to go for a while. This is gonna be sent to me like, a year i think before i graduate or right before, not completely sure, but are you excited to graduate? scared? do you have a job yet? uh i dont really know what else to put. have you came out to your family as nonbinary yet? how did dad react? hopefully he reacted okay lol. yea i dont really have much else to put. have you had a long lasting relationship? uhhh yea i dont know at all what else to write. so i guess, i hope you’re well and not dead LMAO. bye, love october (i know you need it) from june 17th, 2021. [p.s. im adding a picture of me right now so you know what i looked like.]