A letter from Jun 17th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I suck at writing letters and I have troubling putting into words my emotions and how I feel, I have so much to say but I struggle figuring out how to write them down ( in this case type), so lets give this a shot. I feel so much pressure at the age of 19, to figure out what I'm suppose to be doing with my life, I feel like everyone my age has that all sorted out and I'm just getting left behind. I honestly have no clue of where I want to be in 5 years and I'm scared I'm still going to be doing the same old thing and I really don't want that. I want to be doing something I'm actually interested in. I'm currently working at my local car dealership and its not the worst, but its not something I want to be stuck doing for the rest of my life, I want to get out of this town and live anywhere else but here. ( We will see how that goes....) I'm currently the ripe age of 19 and living through a pandemic. I moved out of home for the first time and brought my very first car!! So while a lot has happened I still feel as if I am still living the same old life I have been used to living the past 19 years. My 20th birthday is coming up.... and lets just say I'm not ready to be in my 20s, I should be excited for the new opportunities my life will bring, but I'm just scared, I'm scared that I will still be where I'm at now. I have come to the point in writing when I don't know what else more to say other than. I hope your doing okay. I hope you know your loved. Whatever you decide to do, you will be okay. C x

Epilogue

6 days later

Well past me what can I say, I am very surprised with how well written this letter is and...

Wsa rgixnpesse laso in hitw owh hwo osedkch tlef poen i i.
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Tihw erdol etleyniifd ym ioggn i ng,edcah hvea yhet won wcaksbrad thsi hlwie ma a haev eems i in tersnap dna bgnei my nayigs odls n'reat ym gnhsti akbc onw c,ar eomh ngshti i selt meos ot adn ma ma adn eittnesw ivgiln erya i tfris be by evry.
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Aveh bste dna of leif a ephriap elhwi yawasl in hwit nsideioc dersinf i rfo be i to da,me i hvae wrrgoyni one teh nda one eht i twhi aevh vsai on ot i igronkw wtih natw ym vaeel what ulce ot ym r!etalv 2 twenad sillt tspo i nadaac aevh i dedecid lodtc'un do tshmno idlhoya ihngt do dan no od.
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Ahev 5 i on i my nwat tpu stlil liwl am esom whta me to n'otd otericndi ryesa this flei in lceu cnaheg ubt od in hnopig i egt norgw. Do ilwl btu lal ubatsyolle if heav deai no lifsa ti i hwta i. .
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C x.
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