Time Travelled — 12 months

A letter from Jun 17th, 2021

Jun 17, 2021 Jun 17, 2022


Dear FutureMe,
I suck at writing letters and I have troubling putting into words my emotions and how I feel, I have so much to say but I struggle figuring out how to write them down ( in this case type), so lets give this a shot.

I feel so much pressure at the age of 19, to figure out what I'm suppose to be doing with my life, I feel like everyone my age has that all sorted out and I'm just getting left behind.
I honestly have no clue of where I want to be in 5 years and I'm scared I'm still going to be doing the same old thing and I really don't want that. I want to be doing something I'm actually interested in.

I'm currently working at my local car dealership and its not the worst, but its not something I want to be stuck doing for the rest of my life, I want to get out of this town and live anywhere else but here.

( We will see how that goes....)

I'm currently the ripe age of 19 and living through a pandemic. I moved out of home for the first time and brought my very first car!! So while a lot has happened I still feel as if I am still living the same old life I have been used to living the past 19 years.

My 20th birthday is coming up.... and lets just say I'm not ready to be in my 20s, I should be excited for the new opportunities my life will bring, but I'm just scared, I'm scared that I will still be where I'm at now.

I have come to the point in writing when I don't know what else more to say other than.

I hope your doing okay.
I hope you know your loved.
Whatever you decide to do, you will be okay.

C x


6 days later

Well past me what can I say, I am very surprised with how well written this letter is and also shocked with how open I was in expressing how I felt.

Lets begin this by saying I am now a year older and some things have changed, I am now in my twenties and I am living back home with my parents and I have sold my very first car, while things seem to be going backwards they definitely aren't.

I leave for Canada in 2 months on a working holiday visa with one of my best friends and I couldn't be happier with the decision I have made, while I still have no clue what I want to do with my life I have decided to stop worrying and do the one thing I have always wanted to do and travel!

Don't get me wrong I still have no clue what I want to do in 5 years but I am hoping this change will put some direction in my life. But if it all fails I have absolutely no idea what I will do.

C x

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