A letter from Jun 17th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I suck at writing letters and I have troubling putting into words my emotions and how I feel, I have so much to say but I struggle figuring out how to write them down ( in this case type), so lets give this a shot. I feel so much pressure at the age of 19, to figure out what I'm suppose to be doing with my life, I feel like everyone my age has that all sorted out and I'm just getting left behind. I honestly have no clue of where I want to be in 5 years and I'm scared I'm still going to be doing the same old thing and I really don't want that. I want to be doing something I'm actually interested in. I'm currently working at my local car dealership and its not the worst, but its not something I want to be stuck doing for the rest of my life, I want to get out of this town and live anywhere else but here. ( We will see how that goes....) I'm currently the ripe age of 19 and living through a pandemic. I moved out of home for the first time and brought my very first car!! So while a lot has happened I still feel as if I am still living the same old life I have been used to living the past 19 years. My 20th birthday is coming up.... and lets just say I'm not ready to be in my 20s, I should be excited for the new opportunities my life will bring, but I'm just scared, I'm scared that I will still be where I'm at now. I have come to the point in writing when I don't know what else more to say other than. I hope your doing okay. I hope you know your loved. Whatever you decide to do, you will be okay. C x

Epilogue

6 days later

Well past me what can I say, I am very surprised with how well written this letter is and...

Pneo i i ni loas wthi asw kdcsheo sprnxeeisg owh tefl woh.
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Yaer ldoer ma nivgil sold tsel anpetsr iedeylitfn tsngih bkca cd,nehag esme ot ym ma htwi beign my ni evha tyeh a,rc t'enra by and tinhgs wleih tshi i am rifst a i iygsna reyv now nad iggno mseo aevh won i inwetset be nda skbdawrca my emho i.
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Ot noe of no ve!ltar twih heva leuc ead,m do noe tspo hotmsn hwlie no eeddcdi do htwi hte esbt awth siva hte aehv for 2 ym sllit velea gihnt i hitw 'udotcln i ncaada i datenw riapehp eidnfsr od ni i koigrwn a to eb woyrgnir ym ot evha dna walysa idcsineo dna haev wnta dlihyoa i i fiel i nad.
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Tge td'on leif natw ecul pinhog ym yraes iwll vaeh in me llist ma mseo hwat but ot tpu i grwno ni on 5 i this ictirnode i cnhage do. Ti eida hwta do but euallystob lla no avhe slfia i fi i iwll. .
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C x.
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