A letter from April 3rd, 2021

dear twenty year old- go get a huge ******* obnoxious tattoo for me and break up with your boyfriend if you have one. if you have a girlfriend, keep her. if you're single... get wasted. get something that doesn't make sense, like a raw steak. on your butt? on your lip? this is a reminder to be absurd. be absurd. life is absurd. college? job? dying? running away to alaska? must be pretty stressful. just do it. time check: it's easter saturday, trying to learn how to ollie comfortably. my jeans shrunk in the wash so they actually fit. getting my braces off in june. got contacts but it is SO HARD to put them in,, abt to finish my chem class, i'm definitely going to fail my exam. thinking about chicago for school? it's so weird because i'm trying to seem cool for my future self. i'm not cool okay we know we remember. in honor of your birthday i have two songs and a youtube video for you. get absolutely wasted to them or cry or i don't care. feels by black marble pursuit of happiness by kid cudi and https://youtu.be/OZ_Bu4dfeMs i hope you miss me. but i hope you don't wish you were back here. where you are is where we're meant to be. i'm trying to get us there. don't worry. now i'm handing the responsibility of our life onto you, do whatever the **** you want. i'm proud of you. there's a whole life ahead of you, just. do. it. Slavoj Zizek once said, that film is more real than reality. this email, a delayed set of codes, is our film. you're nostalgic for a place you're not sure exists. you don't need to miss how we were. you can move on, and look at me from memories from time to time. i'll stand behind you, silently cheering you on. i'll be here forever. don't worry about me. worry about you. i am you and you are me so why are you so afraid of losing yourself? happy birthday. 20. wow. now have a **** good time and don't forget what i said.