A letter from March 2nd, 2021

Hi dear self, As you have probably remember, I don't have a dream during mga 22's. I am so confused as f*** with my life. I don't know what I really want. Well, before 20's I dreamt of working in corporate world but no specific industry or specialization aside from it's in finance. But now, I realized I don't really know what I want to have as a career. I just want to travel, you know. Well... Recently, for the past months I have been reading the Costa Leona Series, it's a nice series btw, you might want to re-read it to remember what I have feel at this year of my life. There are times I would just feel sad because I will remember that these men don't exist and they will never exist no matter how much I wanted them to be alive. So going back to the dream (that I don't have one), just this year ha, I thought of living in the province in the future (which is quiet weird cause I love the City, and before I just want a resthouse but now I've been thinking of settling down in a province), specifically in the beach, I am wanting a house near the beach so I could just go out and sit there at the seashore and look at the waters, peace and calming, alone. So refreshing, right? I want to stare at the moon during night time as the sound of the waves and the wind fills my senses, or I could wake up at dawn and wait at the shore as the sun rises. I want to lay on the sand as I stare at the clear blue sky. Someday... I clearly don't know if at the age you're reading this you already have plans for your life but if you have none, you may consider this little dream of yourself at some point of your life when you think you have nowhere to go in your life as time passes by. I just remembered a few seconds ago, I don't know how to swim hahahaha. Well, I am not planning to swim naman everyday and I probably won't go in the deeper part of the ocean so it's okay. What does P.S. mean btw? At some letters, may PS sa dulo but I still don't know its meaning and I don't have plans on looking up for its meaning now. This is the end of the letter. You'd be receiving a few more in the coming years so make sure to read them, okay?