A letter from February 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How are you feeling? I’m really scared, nervous and anxious right now. It’s currently 3 days before A’Level results release, but when you’re reading this, you already know your results. I just want you to know that we did the best that we could at that time without making extreme sacrifices, so whatever grades that we get, you don’t have to be happy with it, but please go easy on ourselves. We tried our best. I’m proud of us. From now on, I hope you figure out your path. Wherever the current takes us, we’ll make sure to go with it, keep afloat and never drown. Best wishes (like really, best wishes for us, I’m hoping to hear good news from you), PastMe

Epilogue

4 months later

Update for my PastMe!

I did - well, relatively okay, in hindsight - but the moment I got my results, I was dumbfounded. The first feeling I registered while sitting...

The het pl,si ecrron saw wyoora,d sclsa taes hbot egde ym sitll ta tsadmppoietinn of hndsa eth ihtlccgun of enra my bkca ulsert ta eth. .
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C a yreshtmic, nghiscur eyllar a ostm and yhcpssi for c my saw sceubjt l,oesnss a nuoatferntu reertil,aut otaiuvrfe eenisg fo d to ofr anetdt lal, rfo. Tbu od cni,sscee a egdra llwe ta ot ym ofr i oucld tgtuhho i od tseal enerv bterte eedxetcp i. Sa rfo eretltirua. . . :exam i ym tli larecl "fien iew yad qi hwne nad dnefri me llwi eateirtrul uoy ehr ntatdede o"dnt' my rbfeoe od ryor,w a nlonotiucast rtehaec tldo we hbto wtah. Oet,rh us c os a ton a, eno na s'she tey ngrwo, eht fo ecauseb edsocr dan wnorg. Utb is ?rt)ehe to (ese jetseicbuv i did ruse, tjusbce lsitl erd,ag erruletiat a htwa. . . Hte ndtpisgiionpa eardg fo eelf uot all, i aws omst tish. Comngpria yelmfs dna to lyefsm tgo ahev sersst i gaian to esrep wonk ptso otu oyu h?taw ym alylre refebo i. Be rae me, pleeop aer iwll anth me htna nda ohw who raetrsm heert sayalw eeoppl berdum. Agreeav si sa e'rew sa nogeuh pahyp gonl oodg nbgei. Psot seplea ,iabth htstyi sl'et sthi leuis,sryo.
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Hchiw erdsoc ta oers,c nptsio 09, i otu htta i is lfcyari iyhtllsg akrn tiereh a oot gdoo ton areevga of 75 tish too bd,a lcaytlau tno tnoi,p sholdu oevab. .
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Of sa tafer gearsd i i ,dnioptedaspi my cactpe ro ckoesdh neve acrpeiepat two ,nopmgi uchm aecm yad a etlf ot as dna. Neex,ucdetp t!oo sreu mhast rgdsae nda eewr ubjetsc i rfo rguaaylb relgnea rof a ahev na rof cdsroe enve tow fidliftcu to ,srcoe a sotm ehste pp,are eht. Cna usjtcebs ropdu eeilvbe clohso rfo a tehse teh rewe fo yuo ni ma veer i ,c us hihtges ttah? 'iev yllrea wot decosr. Yulrt. .
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No or tpnoi nmsgaiu llo the in i ewebtne theeir a an rceso aslo watn otu d,/c tafc i atht to. I ro teiehr sck,u oodg im' at it alleyr. ,ma ssgeu sath't i i hwo.
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A i ehetr ajmor pr cochie ni nvstirisieue this iwht eippdal fo ym cou,yrtn thwi mioucmiocnnta to ni as a ,75 strif beigtgs teh. Enosdc ,sun neasidt frfodee orf giscoy,olo i and saw rtcjdeee ntry,utfauolne aws ceo,ihc my eltoecplmy by utn. Sunisesb sm,u rfoefed enwmaileh, em mnaamtngee. .
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For i a nweh eeegrd noe a sryae thiw a to sadi uprues edmar e,ilf long eth my ceam omticsoinnmacu dna in oy"u heiegtne a who - to ibg peon veen erevn edmar, fnnuy "iek,s i fo tno ersc,ou dha yalnfil ivneerus - up. .
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The eht ni edicded ctcepa recuos i atnemagnme to einsbssu end. Isllt to isht in cdluo dela reufut ehrwe eb wnta i asrpphe me to the.
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Esncod ntgoet ive' ynwaya utb ihcoce be ni eervn aym ym ilfe iftrs sthi my cic,oeh ym. Ym i teg slaayw icheco ,rntygeasl sdcnoe. Llew oh. Asnso're' all ideivn btrtee a ro pepshra awth em jtus tehse c'xseues' up cmea it's ap,th of it's era eylmsf itwh paphrse apesrhp ot froctmo i to ro lgaedin ,trnnvetioien. .
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Nad 'ltse alpefelyuc not me ujts ,asy mi' ekil athw rentruc haetrevw hwveeerr ti saawyl tpah try sedo we ?arttem screair odwnr to, ,no ot lfota the. Et'sl eb appyh. Kas fro i lal st'ath anc. .
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Vl,eo.
Ufeemrtu.
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P. S. Purdo fo s,u im' arelyl ma i. Kedorw ih,st ohw i esrotff not'w drah ew uto cunositd i onkw dan rof. Lief on! osge.