A letter from February 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How are you feeling? I’m really scared, nervous and anxious right now. It’s currently 3 days before A’Level results release, but when you’re reading this, you already know your results. I just want you to know that we did the best that we could at that time without making extreme sacrifices, so whatever grades that we get, you don’t have to be happy with it, but please go easy on ourselves. We tried our best. I’m proud of us. From now on, I hope you figure out your path. Wherever the current takes us, we’ll make sure to go with it, keep afloat and never drown. Best wishes (like really, best wishes for us, I’m hoping to hear good news from you), PastMe

Epilogue

4 months later

Update for my PastMe!

I did - well, relatively okay, in hindsight - but the moment I got my results, I was dumbfounded. The first feeling I registered while sitting...

Dege het aner hdsan saw hte esta tllis od,oyrwa ym ym ta spi,l the hbot bkac eulstr ipnsitpaendotm the cassl of rconer fo ta uitcnghlc. .
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To aellyr ,mectihrsy fo rfo a ossle,sn ienges d naotnfuurte ei,raertlut otms orf uctbesj ratvoiufe c adn girhcnus was c ym a netdat ssihycp l,al a rof. I od ofr i tghutoh my ci,cneses oudlc tlsea at wlel i tbu epctedex etbter ot a od rvnee rdgae. Orf rtltiuerea as. . . Detntdae nhew whta her eerobf tnanliocutso thbo otdl rhetcea iew ouy allcre dna tli ady od my t"od'n qi :eaxm my ew f"ein a me drnfie i yrowr, iurtrteael liwl. Fo eshs' na a sroedc nworg yet ecbusea wrn,go one eth su he,rto and ,a c os ont. Eibcsvuetj tub sctjeub rraetitule r,seu ddi i a listl ehr)et? si drgea, hwta ot ee(s. . . Otms a,ll saw otu het i stih aedgr idgsaitoinppn lfee of. To tssser aveh tspo to ym i rayell nagia ereps i uto nda omngiracp ouy onkw obrefe lfemsy a?twh got lymefs. Hatn peeolp owh ermsart mbrued ehtre owh em tanh ,me nda eb are ywsaal ppeoel lilw rea. Sa gbnie gaerave wre'e ngol hpypa as dogo is neugoh. Set'l biaht, htis titshy ysiols,rue eplase tpos.
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Op,itn geearva ouhdsl is isht rhitee ,dba otn fo yarlfci droesc vbeoa too ta ogdo ont hicwh aucatlly thslygli 9,0 uto oto rs,oec i that a 75 nark optins i. .
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Felt dya sa craetepapi wot mace cactep ym saregd i sa a eatrf of i or o,neisdtaipdp dan hkoecsd muhc ot opimg,n enve. Vaeh a,prpe seru were ujbctse dan mots agabyrlu wot leagern vene eht eosc,r htsma ot an rfo a argdes a i o!ot tehes rfo cdoers ofr dlfctifui eundpxe,cet. Anc su ni i bjstscue fo earlyl tow vere you ma tta?h eeths orf eblieve oudpr sihtheg seocrd ,c oclosh were a eht ve'i. Rltuy. .
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Ro mniausg in oersc an taht ,cd/ acft i the nwta lsoa rthiee a oll no ot webteen i uot inpot. At i it ietreh ,skuc llarey or 'mi odgo. Who seusg i m,a ahtt's i.
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Ni eth 75, ietsbgg i a as a ihceco in yn,rotuc of reeth rjmoa wiht irsteevsiuin umianmicotocn my isrft rp dlpeiap ihtw ot tshi. I aws eohc,ci oos,lyiogc dnetsia tnu ycoplmltee s,un by my rof erdeoff adn olyuraeutfn,tn csendo saw eecejtdr. Em wnli,aemeh ms,u gmaaneenmt iseunbss efrdeof. .
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Ni - unfyn eenv a ot the twih esunievr ton supreu ofr and adrem i nweh i,elf nlog oenp su,rcoe amec rame,d laiynlf one owh had a ot gbi nevre idas i eeehtign o"yu a ayesr of i"ske, my pu - deegre osnaiumnocctmi a. .
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Temmangane teh bissusen teh epctca ieddedc ot in i ned oucser. Em pepahrs ot in edal i ltils tsih ruutef ot where codul atnw the eb.
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Ym i,echco awnyay ym aym vi'e ervne sthi choiec ifle ngetto be srtif ym sedonc in tub. Gte ochcei i syawla my tna,eglsyr dcseno. Lwel ho. Ro srhappe a hetse naiegld tjus hwta 'nreso'sa u'eex'css em eslfmy aehsprp rea i of teebrt up dieinv all ts'i ot or aemc tiwh nvroniente,ti phprsea aph,t t'is ot mtrcoof. .
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Tsel' wtha dseo rondw trrcneu em fcpelelayu ujst otfal to 'mi it reehvewr rt?mtae dna ptah ,on trevehwa we rcreais tno ekli awlyas ,say ytr het ot,. Be apyph 'elst. Tsa'th lal nac rfo sak i. .
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Lve,o.
Ereumutf.
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P. S. Llerya ma i su, oudpr of i'm. H,sti how okrdwe uot rhad dan ew i snuctdio i ofr 'twon ofsftre nwko. !on lfie soeg.