A letter from February 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How are you feeling? I’m really scared, nervous and anxious right now. It’s currently 3 days before A’Level results release, but when you’re reading this, you already know your results. I just want you to know that we did the best that we could at that time without making extreme sacrifices, so whatever grades that we get, you don’t have to be happy with it, but please go easy on ourselves. We tried our best. I’m proud of us. From now on, I hope you figure out your path. Wherever the current takes us, we’ll make sure to go with it, keep afloat and never drown. Best wishes (like really, best wishes for us, I’m hoping to hear good news from you), PastMe

Epilogue

4 months later

Update for my PastMe!

I did - well, relatively okay, in hindsight - but the moment I got my results, I was dumbfounded. The first feeling I registered while sitting...

Lip,s tisll of tesa nahsd ym dgee cakb lcniucght rerocn lscsa mnetitandispop o,aodwyr at eth my teh eth fo saw nera eht hbto leurst at. .
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Rfo orf ot nfauernttou nda c relyla la,l a smot eiu,aretltr iypchss orf rc,yhsemit a saw dtetan c jcuetbs gisene d nsrgchui fo afiuterov my a oslnes,s. I lwel ym btu reenv i csc,enies i dceetxep ot od saetl gdrae ta rbtete for do odlcu a uohtgth. Sa ofr ueettrilra. . . A n"fei lwil d"'nto my bhto uyo itl od uretalietr :aexm cerall my rhe iew feober difern and athw dya me nlantuisootc i odtl hreteca wryro, iq newh tddtaene we. Otn c nda hes's yte neo of os rtoh,e rdoesc the ,a eusbace a na nwg,or us rowgn. A ,uesr utb se(e ot idd relautreit scebjut awht ther?e) i is btceeujisv lltsi ,erdag. . . Of l,la het hsti elfe i stom eadgr wsa out atnnpigiidsop. Efobre hta?w got uto prsee ylsemf uoy i i lleyar stpo pmgoiranc heav dna ot inaag wokn ym fmylse rstess to. Rbduem hreet rea awslay will era plpeoe hwo thna trmsera me, and eoeppl eb em htan how. As hypap geunho e'wer gebin is odgo sa nlog earvage. Tithys lst'e peasle htsi i,abth stop rsues,yiol.
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Too uhdlos 0,9 itsonp aaveger lhtgisly atht oot odog rcose, aaclyult ihst ton ,adb rosedc avbeo iyraclf ,itonp fo ont i si ihhcw 57 ankr a out erhite ta i. .
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Yad felt ro afert ym i veen owt s,padiniotdpe amec gi,mpno a dagsre as epctac much as and earctapeip i to cdesokh fo. Ifdliufct tow dan hsete hmats a a vnee deargs omts an rof to repap, ewre ocer,s ofr teh bauaglry have rsue fro sodcre i uepdt,nxcee subejtc enrlega t!oo. Su odsecr rfo i two v'ie reev eeveibl uoy heets fo a am ni ropdu ishetgh ta?ht ryalle sesujcbt c, erew nac teh shocol. Yrutl. .
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Pntoi ctfa i no uto lol awnt msguain oasl ot bneetew het a an eehtir i ahtt score in d/c, or. Lryeal or mi' i sukc, oogd it etehir ta. Owh 'ahtst eussg ,am i i.
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Hiwt pileapd itfsr a fo ajrmo ,tcuoryn wtih ot in heetr a as ni cnimtocmonuai 7,5 i rp etnuveisisir het gibtesg hist my coihec. I eitndas saw my eefdrfo snu, dan ociec,h dsceno coeeytlplm uralntftnuy,oe jecteder yiscl,oogo yb rof was ntu. Sisbeuns derfoef anaengmtme em ,ienhelwam um,s. .
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Ton ym i egetinhe nvee a ,ske"i - woh to i het with orf a nwhe yfnlial m,aedr nad uspure had ,cseuro ersay rdame up ecma big uy"o ni opne - a fle,i eervn rgeede eineusrv a nnufy to isad fo gnlo one ouanccmmisonit. .
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Ssunsebi to ecctpa eth uroesc i hte enamametgn ni ecddied nde. Twna em ldea ltsli eth uertfu ihts be hrwee ni i ot dluoc aprhesp to.
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Ym rftsi nyawya oe,ichc dosecn iocceh vie' ni verne amy tognet my sith ym tbu lfie eb. Waslya nsalreyg,t ondecs i tge ym ceohci. Oh ellw. Wiht lla spaprhe e's'onasr iievnd em i ,tetnenovinri yflmes era or fcotmro tahw phrasep lndegia si't sti' or hsete pu ah,tp of to apsephr a tjsu to erettb se'esx'cu meca. .
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Wtha eth arhvewte eevhrerw eiscrar lafto ot soed em t,o upecelyfla te'sl ti eatt?rm wsaayl n,o ytr nto rrntuce we rnodw mi' like tsju say, htap adn. Be phyap ls'et. Hst'at rfo acn lla aks i. .
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E,vlo.
Etmrfuue.
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P. S. S,u im' alryel i uprod fo am. We nda dkerow tfosefr for i tou i tihs, kown 'wont dciosntu owh dhra. Egos efil n!o.