A letter from February 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How are you feeling? I’m really scared, nervous and anxious right now. It’s currently 3 days before A’Level results release, but when you’re reading this, you already know your results. I just want you to know that we did the best that we could at that time without making extreme sacrifices, so whatever grades that we get, you don’t have to be happy with it, but please go easy on ourselves. We tried our best. I’m proud of us. From now on, I hope you figure out your path. Wherever the current takes us, we’ll make sure to go with it, keep afloat and never drown. Best wishes (like really, best wishes for us, I’m hoping to hear good news from you), PastMe

Epilogue

4 months later

Update for my PastMe!

I did - well, relatively okay, in hindsight - but the moment I got my results, I was dumbfounded. The first feeling I registered while sitting...

Fo at teh teh tilsl rane asdhn etsa cslas at ym hte egde tuhlniccg opsenidmtipatn swa obth hte abkc orncer ,drwooya of p,sil lsetur ym. .
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Aelylr ot fo nrauuftento r,leutriaet ,all a lneso,ss a yheimr,sct sbucjet uricngsh fro c neiesg dna c somt a my edtatn d orf rof saw ipcshsy tofviuear. I to do xtcepeed cluod ta i salet my oguthht llwe eardg utb cc,eissen a rveen fro tbtere od i. Sa rof eitlrtarue. . . Ohtb ellrca otdl or,wry efidrn etdnatde ayd :axem nf"ie auleeirttr reboef me my od hteaecr sotnonciualt uyo nda my we "ntdo' qi hre eiw i ilt waht wlli nhwe a. Odersc wrnog yte fo na oen ,eotrh so c a, otn a us nda bseuace nro,wg shs'e teh. Ruertaetli still i is esjutebivc a but degar, idd ehert?) ot ese( ,rues subetcj athw. . . Efel goiipdinastnp wsa eht uot itsh i dgrae al,l of stom. Esmfyl you tuo vhae tog eoerfb i aiagn to ownk esrep rellya ?twha i mleysf sersst my nad pmrciogna to stop. Yawals owh eehrt hnat ,me nhat lpeope rea owh nad eeppol wlli dmrube rea me be errtasm. Nbegi gdoo eevarga sa yahpp is unehog ew're lgno as. Tes'l yseu,osilr isth hyitst tpso apeles hat,bi.
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Eagaver ,09 i ,nptoi hosdul 57 ankr itreeh doog of tsih uto hwhic a tno taht si yatlclua adb, ithglyls yclirfa spntio oot otn ta i oto bvaoe desroc eoscr,. .
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Deagsr dna ndpidtoipsea, i or mhuc enev ot i wto a amec ckdeohs ayd faret fo omgn,pi eaperipact ltef sa as ym pcceat. !too vnee a eordsc were a wto teesh rof to an rfo evha ragdse ctflidfiu yrgauabl eorsc, gealern tsom rp,pea rof adn i x,neepctude ujstebc teh uesr hmtsa. Alyler veer csohol esbsctju su the ,c a orf fo i ma erwe eievbel wot steeh rdseco igsthhe cna yuo 'iev ht?at dorpu ni. Tluyr. .
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In iunsmag to llo ithere teebwen no tcaf ,d/c na rosce a losa iontp i or out atht hte i atwn. Ro doog im' triehe i at ,ucsk ryalel ti. Sttah' i gusse ,ma i hwo.
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I of a ursitenvesii a ihts hwit to thiw ni rftsi eildppa teh ym imaucomtnicon ereth cotuyr,n rp coceih sa rjoma ,75 ni tbieggs. Ednsoc opcmllyete i swa eefdfor ym uns, sgoioc,oyl orf eidnats wsa h,ioecc utn fuennluoy,trta by nda ejcrteed. Mnei,eawlh ,sum sinusbse odefrfe em mganmteena. .
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- seenrvui deamr of dha eetgnihe up ,feil nogl nda "you bgi i asrye neo when ym m,ared a to renve a iads mmucanciisonot enev i fuynn aecm u,reosc teh a in rof a how ke",si ot esruup regdee npeo lflaiyn nto - iwht. .
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Ot hte roeucs eth dne nssubesi cpeact i dciddee egtmneanam in. Eb me ihst i tawn to laed het wehre rfueut ocdul lstli ni srphpea ot.
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Eb ccieoh erven my ilfe srfit ni awnyya enodsc ym otetgn my vi'e btu shit heio,cc amy. My ae,sylgrnt echioc i sdenoc gte aywsla. Lwel ho. I ylesmf nievdi gildnae eehts or sxs'c'eeu tsju ahwt i'ts ro fo em ntevrnioneit, aepsrph t'is a tomfroc htap, iwth pu ot rpeashp ear ot berett 's'ranose all aphsper acme. .
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S,ay 'im ytr lcueeyafpl urnetcr caisrer hte edos ton t,o hpta it tahw jstu eehrwvre nad to me aylwsa ltfoa tt?mare nwrdo ,on leki trvhawee eslt' ew. Be slet' hpyap. I cna ksa rof ths'ta all. .
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Levo,.
Uetermfu.
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P. S. Us, udopr fo 'im rllyea ma i. Sounctdi on'wt tuo oewdkr i dhar owh hs,ti ftrfoes and fro wkon i we. Goes no! lefi.